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Tough Love

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Reflection on the 28th Sunday in Ordinary Time [October 14, 2018] Mark 10:17-30

Jesus, looking at him, loved him and said to him, “You are lacking in one thing. Go…follow me.” (Mk. 10:21)

agape crossWe discover at least three instances in the Bible in which Jesus explicitly expresses that He loves someone. The first instance is that Jesus loves the young rich man who seeks the eternal life (Mrk 10:21). The second is Jesus loves Martha, Mary, and Lazarus (Jn 11:5). The third is Jesus’ love for His disciples, especially His beloved disciple (Jn 13:34).

In these three accounts, Jesus’ love is not simply an emotional kind of affection. It is not the love that causes an adrenalin rush, heart’s palpitation, and an explosion of imagination. It is not fickle love that comes in the morning but dies in the afternoon. The love of Jesus is a love rooted in free will and firm decision. No wonder the Greek word used to describe this love is “agape.” Neither it is “eros,” an emotional and sexual love, nor “philia,” an affection for friends. St. Thomas Aquinas succinctly yet powerfully describes “love” as willing the good of the others. When Jesus loves them, Jesus freely chooses that the good things may happen in their lives even though this means Jesus has to forgo His own goodness and benefits. It is the tough love that entails giving up oneself, sacrifice and even pain. It is the love that thrives even when life has turned sour, and feelings have become bitter.

Going back to the story of the rich young man who asks Jesus on how to inherit the eternal life, he is basically a good guy. He has done a lot of good deeds and been faithful to God and the Law of Moses. Jesus Himself gives him score nine out of ten. Only one thing is still lacking. When Jesus invites the young man to sell what he has, to give them to the poor, and follow Jesus, the man goes away sad. Why? The Evangelist gives us the answer: he has many “ ktemata ,” landed properties. This guy is not ordinarily rich, but super rich. Perhaps, the young man thinks that eternal life is something that can be added to his properties, something that is acquired by doing good and avoiding evil or something that can make him even richer. Yet, this is not eternal life, but a mere shopping in the mall.

Eternal life is a gratuitous gift from God given to those whom He loves. This young man is truly blessed because Jesus loves him. The eternal life is just a step away from this good young man. Yet, though the gift is free, it is never cheap. Jesus wants the young man to follow Him because He wishes to teach the young man how to love like Him. Jesus wants him to will the good of the others, and this begins with selling his precious properties and helping the poor. Here comes again the paradox of love: unless we give ourselves for others, we never have ourselves fully. In the words of St. Francis of Assisi, “For it is in giving that we receive, it is in pardoning that we are pardoned, and it’s in dying that we are born to eternal life.”

I have been in the formation for more than 16 years, more than half of my life. I used to get frustrated because I have done well and fulfilled the requirements, and yet the ordination never comes. However, I realize that I was thinking like the rich young man. I forget that the vocation, as well as ordination, are gifts, not reward. This perspective frees me from my pride and makes me humble and grateful. Jesus loves me, and He loves me tough .

Jesus loves us and yet, it is not an easy and pampering love. It is tough love. It is love that challenges us to grow beyond; it is love that dares us to remain in truth, it is love that propels us to love like Jesus.

Br. Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

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Rosary and Family

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Reflection on the 27th Sunday in Ordinary Time – Feast of the Holy Rosary [October 7, 2018] Mark 10:2-16

rosaryIf there is one prayer that can change the course of world history, it is the earnest recitation of the holy rosary.  In 1571, through the unceasing prayer of the rosary, a league of Christian nations called by Pope Pius V was able to stop the military advancement of the mighty Ottoman empire to western Europe in the Gulf of Patras, near Lepanto, Greece. In 1917, Our Lady appeared to three little children in Fatima, and one of her messages was to pray the rosary for the peace of the world. Through nation-wide recitation of the rosary, Austria was freed from the communist regime in 1955. In 1960, led by Catholic women marching the streets while praying the rosary, Brazil was also spared from communism.

For the Catholics in the Philippines, the recitation of the rosary has conquered the impossible. In 1646, the Dutch armada attempted to take over the Philippines from the weakened Spanish authority. With only three modified galleons, the combined Spanish and Filipino forces defended the country from Dutch warships in a series of sea battles. The eyewitness narrated how the soldiers prayed the rosary while the battle was being waged. The miracle took place. The three galleons were practically unharmed, while the enemy’s ships either were sunk or sustained heavy damages. The miracle was attributed to the intercession of Our Lady of the Rosary, La Naval de Manila. The rosary is believed to have made the People Power revolution in 1986 a peaceful event.

These are several among many historical events in which the recitation of the rosary has played a significant role in the lives of nations. However, the praying of the rosary does not only affect the nations but more meaningfully the lives of ordinary people and families.

Today’s Gospel speaks about the sanctity of marriage and family. In marriage, husband and wife promise each other something that they cannot fulfill, namely perfect happiness. We are imperfect creatures and wounded by sin, and it is just beyond our natural ability to achieve our genuine happiness. Left to our own strength, we are bound to fail or face meaninglessness. We are emotionally unstable, we want things for ourselves, and we just hurting each other. No wonder Bishop Fulton Sheen once said, “Marriage is not difficult. It is just humanly impossible.”

Jesus reminds us that man and woman are created for each other to be “one flesh,” and immediately Jesus teaches, “what God has joined together, no human being must separate.”  We often forget that the one who unites man and woman is God Himself. Marriage and family are primarily the work of God, not just human beings. God wants a true joy for us, and this can be achieved by the paradox of love. It is not by accumulating things for ourselves but giving up ourselves totally to others. Marriage becomes one way that God designs to achieve this self-giving. Husband gives himself totally to his wife, and the wife gives herself wholly to her husband. As they are losing themselves, they gain everything they cannot humanly gain, namely genuine self-growth, meaningful life, and true happiness. Thus, prayer together turns out to be an unassuming yet powerful way to remind the couples of this God’s work in their midst.

Fr. Patrick Payton once said, “A family that prays together stays together.” As the founder of Family Rosary Crusade, the prayer he means in this classic line is no other than the recitation of the rosary. At first, it sounds cliché, but on a personal note, I can say it is indeed a powerful prayer for the family. I still could remember how my parents taught me the rosary, and it was within the context of family and community prayer. I do believe that my family has survived a lot of storms because we do not forget to pray together. I also believe countless families, and communities have conquered the difficulties and challenges because they have prayed the rosary faithfully.

Br. Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

Amputation

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Reflection on the 26th Sunday in Ordinary Time [September 30, 2018] Mark 9:36-43, 45, 47-48

“If your hand causes you to sin, cut it off.  (Mk. 9:43 )”

confessionWhen I was assigned to the hospital to serve as a chaplain, I witnessed the rise of diabetic cases as well as its terrifying effects on the patients. In simple term, diabetes is a condition in a person who can no longer naturally manage their blood sugar. In more serious cases, the body loses its natural ability to heal its wounds. In the beginning, it was a small open wound, yet since the body no longer heals, the infections set in, and this leads into gangrene or the death of the body’s tissues. I accompanied some patients who were struggling with this situation and witnessed how their fingers or even foot were darkened and deformed. When the ordinary treatment no longer worked, the amputation became the only merciful option as to prevent the spread of infections. As a chaplain, accompanying these patients was one of my toughest missions in the hospital.

In today’s Gospel, Jesus’ words are pretty harsh, if not violent. He wants the one who causes the believers to sin to be thrown into the sea. He wants hands and feet cut, and eyes plugged. He even describes Gehenna in more vivid details, “where their worm does not die, and the fire is not quenched.” The image of Jesus seems to be far different from Jesus who is gentle and merciful. What is going on? Is Jesus promoting violence? Is Jesus a schizophrenic or having a split personality?

Jesus is perfectly sane. Yet, he becomes passionate because he is teaching a serious matter with a grave consequence. This is none other than sin. Jesus knows well that sin corrupts, and like growing roots, it corrupts to every side. Sin destroys our souls, our neighbors, our environment and even our holy relationship with God. What more sinister about sin is that deforms our conscience and makes us believe that we are just doing fine. In his book ‘The Name of God is Mercy, Pope Francis speaks of the effect of sinful corruption, “Corruption is not an act but a condition, a personal and social state we become accustomed to living in… The corrupt man always has the cheek to say, ‘It wasn’t me!”…He is the one who goes to Mass every Sunday but has no problem using his powerful position to demand kickbacks…then he boasts to his friends about his cunning ways.”

Like in the case of a person struggling with diabetes and having gangrene in his finger, it is better for him to amputate the affected finger as to prevent the spreading of infection, and thus, save his other organs, and life. So it is with sin. Jesus commands us to “amputate” those areas in our lives that are corrupted by sin, as to save our souls. But, this is not easy. Like some of the patients I ministered to, they refuse to give up the precious parts of their bodies. They deny, get angry and frustrated, and try to bargain with the doctors to avoid amputation. With the same mentality, we often deny that we nurture our vices. We get angry when people correct us and reveal us our sins. We also bargain with the Lord to keep our favorite sins and tell Him that we are going to be better in other aspects of our lives. However, these do not work. A radical “amputation” is necessary to save our ailing souls.

The good news, however, is that unlike the body which will never regain the lost limbs, our souls will, in fact, grow even holier after the “amputation.” The relationship between others will be purified, our attitude towards the environment will be filled with care and mercy, and our love for God will be deepened.

What are our sinful attitudes that harm ourselves, others and the environment ? Are we humble enough to receive corrections? Are we courageous enough to acknowledge them as sins? Do we ask God’s grace to prepare us for the sacrament of confession?

Br. Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

True Greatness

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Reflection on the 25th Sunday in Ordinary Time [September 23, 2018] Mark 9:30-37

“Whoever wants to be first must be last of all and servant of all.” (Mk. 9:35)

ordination 1While I was reflecting on this Sunday’s Gospel, I was able to discover some news about our Church. Good News! The Catholic Church in the Philippines is preparing herself for the 500 years of the arrival of Christianity in this archipelago. The first baptism and Eucharist were taking place in 1521 as the Spanish missionaries began their evangelization mission. As part of this grand preparation, the Bishops of the Philippines have decided to celebrate this year as the year of the clergy and the consecrated persons. The major theme of this year is the renewed servant-leaders for the new evangelization. In view of this, many programs and activities are organized to help both the ordained ministers and the religious brothers and sisters to deepen their commitment to God and their service to the people.

Not so good news. It is also true, however, that today the Church is also facing a deep crisis. In many countries and places, the clergy, as well as the religious persons, are caught in scandals and shameful things. One among the worst is the sexual abuses involving the minors done by priests and even bishops, and the massive cover-up staged to tolerate this structural evil. Yet, this is not the only thing that plagues the Church. Some ordained ministers are dishonest and having double-standard lives. Some are secretly enriching themselves. Others may not commit any scandal, but are lacking in compassion and enthusiasm in serving the people of God. Many stories are circulating of priests refusing to hear confession or anointing the dying because they like to prioritize their scheduled hobbies or religious persons who are grumpy and easily irritated with others. These attitudes simply drive people away from the Church. The rest of us perhaps are just nothing but mediocre clergy or religious. This reminds me of Pope Francis who points that holiness as opposed to ‘bland and mediocre existence.’

Our Gospel narrates Jesus who in private teaches the disciples, who will be the first and models of Church’s leaders. The Gospel itself can be divided into two parts. The first part speaks of Jesus foretelling his impending suffering and death in Jerusalem. Here, reacting to Jesus’ words, the disciples drop silence. Perhaps, the memory of Jesus scolding Peter and calling him “Satan” is still fresh in the mind of the disciples and nobody wants to repeat the same embarrassment. The second part of the Gospel tells us of the topic of greatness. This time, the disciples have a different reaction. Not only do they initiate the discussion, but they are also passionately arguing among themselves. We can imagine Peter boasting himself as the leader among the apostles, or John telling everyone that he is the closest to Jesus, or Matthew being proud of his richness. After all, these are our first Pope and first bishops. Yet, when Jesus asks them, they once again fall silent.

The apostles seem to forget that Jesus’ disciples have to carry their cross and follow Jesus to Jerusalem. Jesus, however, understands that human desire for excellence is a gift from God. Jesus does not forbid His apostles to have dreams and strive for greatness, but He makes a radical twist. He directs this powerful energy from achieving one selfish interests into serving others. Thus, Jesus’ unforgettable line: “Whoever wants to be first must be last of all and servant of all.” (Mk. 9:35) Indeed, they need to excel, but not any worldly measures, but in serving and empowering others. In his exhortation, Gaudete et Exsultate, Pope Francis calls this “the Logic of the Cross.” True happiness is a paradox. If the clergy, the religious and all of us want to be genuinely happy, then it is not so much on the wealth and success we have gained, but from our service and sacrifice for others.

We continue to pray for our priests and bishops, as well as our religious brother and sisters. We pray not only that they may avoid scandals, but they may be holy. As Pope Benedict XVI puts it, “holiness is nothing other than charity lived to the full.”

Br. Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

Half Christ

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Reflection on 24th Sunday in Ordinary Time [September 16, 2018] Mark 8:27-35

“Jesus asked them, ‘But who do you say that I am?’ (Mk. 8:29)”

carrying crossSeveral years ago, I gave a talk on the introduction to Christology to a group of young Filipino professionals who wished to deepen their spirituality. The first question I asked them as we commenced the short course was, “Who do you say that Jesus is?” The answers were varied. Some gave a dogmatic formula like Jesus is God, one quoted the Bible saying Jesus is the Word made flesh, one expressed boldly that Jesus is Savior and Lord, and the rest shared personal convictions like Jesus is their closest friend, or Jesus is their Shepherd. All these answers were right, but nobody claimed that Jesus is the Christ. Considering that our subject was Christology, we missed the basic Jesus’ title, in Greek, “Christos,” in Hebrew, “Messiah,” and translated into English, the Anointed One. Fortunately, around two thousand years ago, Simon Peter was able to spell the title when Jesus Himself asked the question.

Going deeper into our Gospel today, we are at chapter 8 of the Gospel of Mark. Since Mark has 16 chapters, we are literally in the middle of this second canonical Gospel. Yet, today’s reading does only happen to be in the middle of the Gospel, but it turns out to be the turning point of the Gospel. In the first eight chapters, Mark narrates Jesus’ ministry in Galilee and some other Gentile regions in the north of Israel. Jesus is doing wonders and teaching with authority. He can draw a lot of people, and some of them will be close followers called His disciples. Meanwhile, the last eight chapters, Jesus begins to journey down south and reaches His destination in Jerusalem. There, He will face his tormentors, and He will meet His passion, death and resurrection.

Peter gets the bulls-eye answer. After all, Peter’s profession is what Mark intends to convey to his readers, “The beginning of the gospel of Jesus Christ (Mk. 1:1).” Unfortunately, when Jesus reveals His suffering and death, it does not sit well with Peter’s idea of the Messiah. Perhaps Peter gets stuck with the concept of a powerful and conquering Christ that will lead Israel into victory.  Jesus has been preaching about the coming of the Kingdom, teaching unforgettable lessons, and performing unmatched miracles. Surely, nothing, not even the great Roman empire could beat this Messiah. However, Peter just desires the first half of the Gospel, and cannot be at peace with the other half of the Gospel. If Peter and other disciples want to accept Jesus fully, then they need to embrace the other half of the Gospel of Jesus Christ as well. Following Jesus does not stop in Galilee where things are just awesome, but it has to go down to Jerusalem, where the persecution and death lurk. Thus, Jesus declares, “Whoever wishes to come after me must deny himself, take up his cross, and follow me. (Mk. 8:34).”

Often we are like Peter. We call ourselves Jesus’ disciples and accept the Gospel of Jesus Christ, but in reality, we just want half of Jesus or parts of the Gospel. We go to the Church and worship God, but we do not want to soil our hands in helping our brothers and sisters in need. Married couples enjoy the benefits of marriage, yet refuse to see children as a gift of God. Religious men and women vow to serve the Lord and His Church, but often, we serve our own interests and desires. No wonder G. K. Chesterton once wrote, “The Christian ideal has not been tried and found wanting. It has been found difficult; and left untried.” As we try to answer Jesus’ question, “Who do you think that I am?”, we are invited to reflect and to accept Jesus and His Gospel, not half, but the whole of Him.

Br. Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

Beyond Healing

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Twenty-Third Sunday in Ordinary Time [September 9, 2018] Mark 7:31-37

“Jesus has done everything well; he even makes the deaf to hear and the mute to speak.” (Mk. 7:37)

jesus heals deaf muteThe deaf man whom Jesus heals is so blessed. He is able to see Jesus, and He finds healing. Inspired by this miracle, we wish that we will also meet Jesus and He will heal our sickness and solve our problems. Thus, we come to various places where we believe Jesus will heal us. We visit pilgrimage sites, we attend prayer and worship meetings, we recite various novenas, and we become actively involved in the Church’s organizations. We believe that our faith in Jesus will save us. However, what if our prayers are not granted? What if our problems are not solved but rather grow in number? What if our sickness is not healed, but gets worse? What if we do not feel that we are saved? One time, I visited Flora [not her real name], a colon-cancer patient, and she asked me, “Brother, I have faith in God, and I faithfully serve the Church, but why am I suffering from this terrible sickness?” Surely, it was a tough question.

In today’s Gospel, Mark, the evangelist, seems to present Jesus as the traditional faith-healer. Just like other healers, Jesus touches the affected body parts of the sick person, namely his ears and tongue. Jesus also spits because, in ancient times, saliva is believed to have therapeutic effects. The act of spitting itself is also considered to drive away evil spirits, and some diseases are thought to come from these evil spirits. Then, Jesus groans to heaven and says a word, “Ephphatha!” This is like other faith-healers who utter certain formula of magic words or incantation as to affect the healing desired. What the people need is to have faith in the faith-healer, and viola, they are healed.

Inspired by this kind of model, we begin to treat Jesus as a faith-healer. We just need to have faith in Him, and the rest will be just perfect. We believe in Him, and we will be saved. That’s all! This image of Jesus is, however, distorted and even dangerous. We reduce Jesus as mere instant problem-solver and an ultimate trouble-shooter. Again, what if we do not get what we expect despite our effort to trust in Him?

Mark is inviting us to read his Gospel more profoundly.  There is something more remarkable that we, ordinary readers of the Bible, miss. In original Greek, the term for speech impediment or mute in the Gospel of Mark is “mogilalos.” This very term is also used in the book of Isaiah when the prophet prophesied, “…, and the mute tongue – “mogilalos” – sing for joy (Isa. 35:6 – our first reading)”. But, the prophecy is not only about healing the diseases, but it is about the holistic restoration of both the land and the people of God (see Isa 35:1-10). Mark does not only want to present Jesus as someone more powerful than faith-healers, but he points to us that Isaiah’s prophecy is being fulfilled. In Jesus, God has come to His people and redeemed us. Yet, what does it mean in our daily lives?

This means our faith in Jesus has to be bigger than ourselves, our personal problems and concerns. It is true that we may not have immediate healing to our sickness and solution to our problems, but our lives and our capacity to live and love are enlarged. And, as we become more loving, we begin to change also people around us. As people change, our world will become a better place.

Going back to Flora. After reflecting for a while, I answered Flora, “Well, I do not exactly know why God allows this sickness. But, as you can see, your family is doing their best to help you recover because they love you. Now, you are doing your best to get healed because you love them. See, God has made you bigger than yourself before. I believe faith is working in you.”

Br. Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

Tradition

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Twenty Second Sunday in Ordinary Time [September 2, 2018] Mark 7:1-8, 14-15, 21-23

“You disregard God’s commandment but cling to human tradition.” (Mk. 7:8)

mano poIn today’s Gospel, Jesus seems to denounce all traditions. However, this position is rather simplistic and unattainable. The reason is that human beings are the creatures of traditions. Tradition comes from Latin word, “tradere”, meaning “to hand down”. Thus, crudely put, tradition is anything that has been handed down from our predecessors. Traditions range from something tangible like technologies and fashions, to something intangible like values, languages, sciences and many more. I remember how my mother taught me basic Christian prayers, like Our Father, Hail Mary, and the Rosary, and how my father would regularly bring us to the Church every Sunday. This is my family’s religious traditions. As an Indonesian living in the Philippines, I appreciate the “Mano Po” tradition among the Filipinos. This is a simple gesture of respect and blessing. The younger Filipinos are to hold a hand of older Filipino, and place it on their forehead.

Had Jesus renounced all the traditions, He should have stopped speaking Aramaic, refrained from teaching the people, begun removing all His Jewish clothes, and walking naked! Yet, Jesus did not do those things. Jesus respects traditions and acknowledges their importance. However, Jesus also recognizes that there are some traditions that are problematic and bring more problems rather than solutions. Immersed in the stream of traditions, Jesus invites us to discern well on what traditions that bring us true worship of God and genuine progress for human society.

Going back to the time of Jesus, the Jews are particular with ritual purity because they can only worship God when they are ritually clean. In view of this worship, they carefully avoid contamination from blood, dead body and unclean animals, or any objects that are in contact with these things. Since they are not sure whether their hands and utensils are ritually clean, especially if they come from the marketplace or the fields, they make it a habit to purify their hands and utensils to evade contamination from uncleanliness. Thus, various purification rituals develop into traditions for the Jews. The intention of these traditions is good because they assist people to worship God. However, some of the Pharisees put excessive emphasis on these traditions and make them absolute as if failure to observe these rituals means they fail to revere God. They confuse between the genuine worship that brings true honor for God, and other traditional practices that assist people in achieving this worship.

Jesus does not only invite us to discern carefully various traditions we have, but Jesus also offers us a more fundamental tradition in worshiping God. Instead of “handing down” practices or things, Jesus hands down something most important, namely His own life for God and us. Jesus gives up His Body and Blood, His total self, in the Last Supper, and this sacrifice reaches its summit at the Cross. His self-offering becomes the most pleasing worship to God, and procures the gift of salvation for all of us. Because of His Tradition, the world is no longer the same. Jesus hands over this great Tradition to His Disciples and throughout the generations, the Christians are faithfully offering this sacrifice of Jesus Christ in the Eucharist. As we partake Jesus’ self-offering, we are also empowered to hand down ourselves to others. This means we are invited to make our daily sacrifices, to persevere in doing good, and to be faithful to our commitments either as spouse, parents, priests, religious, or professionals. As we live this greatest tradition daily, we do not only make the world a better place, but to offer a pleasing worship to God.

Br. Valentinus Bayuahadi Ruseno, OP

Faith and Suffering

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Twenty-First Sunday in Ordinary Time [August 26, 2018] John 6:60-69

“Master, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life (Jn. 6:67).”

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photo by Harry SJ

In our today’s Gospel, Simon Peter and other disciples are facing a major crossroad: whether they will believe in Jesus’ words and they need to consume Jesus’ flesh and blood as to gain eternal life, or they will consider Jesus as insane and leave Him. They are dealing with hard and even outrageously unbelievable truth, and the easiest way is to leave Jesus. Yet, amidst doubt and lack of understanding, Peter’s faith prevails, “Master, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life (Jn. 6:67).” It is faith that triumphs over the greatest doubt, a faith that we need also.

 

I am ending my clinical pastoral education at one of the busiest hospitals in Metro Manila. It has been a truly faith-enriching and heart-warming experience. I am blessed and privileged to minister to many patients in this hospital. One of the most memorable and perhaps faith-challenging encounter is with Christian [not his real name].

When I visited the pediatric ward, I saw a little boy, around six years old, lying on the bed. He was covered by a thin blanket and seemed in pain. Then I talked to the watcher who happened to his mother, Christina [not her real name]. She told me that the dialysis did not go well and he had a little fever. As the conversation went on, I discovered that Christian was not that young. He was actually 16 years old. I did not believe my eyes, but the mother explained that it was because his kidneys shrank to the point of disappearing, and because of this terrible condition, his growth stopped, and his body also shrank. Christian has undergone dialysis for several years, and due to recurrent infections, the hospital has been his second home. Christina herself lost his husband when he died several years ago, and stopped working to take care of Christian. The older sister of Christian had to stop schooling and worked to support the family.

Looking at Christian, and listening to Christina, I was hurt, and I was almost shedding tears. Despite my long theological formation, I cannot but question God. “Why do You allow this kind of terrible suffering to an innocent little man? Why do you allow his life and future be robbed by this illness?” My faith was shaken. Then, I was asking Christina how she was able to deal with the situation. She shared that it was really difficult, but she has accepted the condition, and she continues to struggle to the end because she loved Christian. I was also asking her what made her strong, and I cannot forget her answer. She said that she was strong when she saw little Christian’s smiles, and she felt his simple happiness.

Right there and then, through Christina, I felt God has answered my questions and doubts. It is true that terrible things happen, but God never leaves us. He was there in Christian’s simple smiles. He was there in little acts of love from Christina for her son. It is true that life is full of incomprehensive sufferings and heart-breaking moments, like the loss of loved ones, the broken relationships, the health and financial problems, and perhaps the recent revelation of sexual abuses done by many Catholic priests in the US. These can trigger our anger and disappointment towards God. We shall remain angry, confused and lost if we focus on the painful reality, but God is inviting us to see Him in simple and ordinary things that bring us comfort, strength, and joy. If Jesus calls us to have faith the size of mustard seed, it is because this kind of faith empowers us to recognize God in simple and ordinary things of our lives.

Br. Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

The Body of Christ in Our Lives

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Twentieth Sunday in Ordinary Time [August 19, 2018] John 6:51-58

“Whoever eats my flesh and drinks my blood has eternal life…(Jn. 6:54)”

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From Jesus’ time until the present, the Eucharist is one of Jesus’ most difficult teachings to understand, less to believe. People can easily agree with Jesus when He says that we need to love our neighbors as ourselves. People may have a difficult time to forgive and to love one’s enemy, but they will accept that vengeance and violence will not solve any issue. Perhaps, it is easier if we are simply to accept Jesus with our whole heart and believe that we are saved. However, Jesus does not only teach those beautiful things. Jesus goes to the very length of the Truth about our salvation. He is the Bread of Life, and this Bread of Life is His flesh and blood. Jesus does not only ask us to believe but to eat His flesh and drink His blood so that we may have eternal life.

For the Jews during that time, to eat human flesh is a total abomination and to drink blood, even the blood of an animal, is forbidden. Thus, when Jesus tells them to consume His Flesh and Blood, many Jews would think that He must be out of His mind. The people are following Jesus because they witnessed Jesus’ power in multiplying the bread, and they want to make him their leader. Yet, Jesus reminds them that they miss the mark if they simply follow Him because he feeds them with the ordinary bread. They should work for the Bread of Life that is Jesus Himself. Many of Jesus’ initial followers murmur, and eventually, they leave Him, because of this very hard teaching.

Going to our time, Eucharist remains the most difficult to understand. Are this small white tasteless bread and a drop of wine truly the Body and Blood of Christ? How can this ordinary food contain the fullness of Jesus’ divinity and humanity? Why should we bend our knee in adoration before an ordinary thing? The greatest minds ever born, from St. Paul to our contemporary scholars, have tried to explain the mystery, but none of their explanation is adequate. St. Thomas Aquinas who was able to write one of the most profound explanations of the Eucharist, eventually had to admit that this is the mystery of faith. He wrote in his hymn to the Blessed Sacrament, Tantum Ergo, “Præstet fides supplementum, Sensuum defectu (Let faith provide a supplement, for the failure of the senses).”

Indeed, the greatest faith is needed to accept the greatest mystery, because the humblest form of food brings us to the eternal life. Yet, this becomes one of the most beautiful Good News Jesus brings. The eternal life is not something we only gain afterlife, but Jesus makes this life available here and now.  If God is truly present in this small bread, then He is also present in our daily life, no matter ordinary it is. If Jesus is broken in the Eucharist, so He is embracing us in our darkest and broken moments of life. If Jesus who is the Wisdom of God, is contained in this little host, this Wisdom provides us with true meaning in our seemingly senseless lives.

What I am ending my pastoral work in the hospital, and one thing I most grateful is that I am given an opportunity to walk together with many patients, and to minister the Holy Communion to them. The Eucharist as the real presence of Christ becomes their consolation and strength. It becomes the greatest sign that God does not abandon them despite unsurmountable problems they need to face. Through the Body of Christ in the Eucharist and the Word of God in the Bible, we together journey to find meaning in the midst of painful and broken reality of sickness and death. In the Eucharist, our life is not just a bubble of intelligence in the endless stream of meaningless events, but participation in the eternal life of God.

Br. Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

Preaching Faith

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Nineteenth Sunday in Ordinary Time [August 12, 2018] John 6:41-51

Amen, amen, I say to you, whoever believes has eternal life. I am the bread of life.  (Jn 6:47-48)

I am currently having my pastoral clinical education in one of the hospitals in the Metro Manila. Aside from visiting the patients and attending to their spiritual needs, we also have processing sessions guided by our supervisor.  During one of the sessions, our supervisor asked me, “Where is the ultimate source of your preaching?” As a member of the Order of Preachers, I was caught off guard. My initial reaction was to say our deeply revered motto, “Contemplare, at contemplata aliis tradere (to contemplate, and to share the fruits of one’s contemplation).” He pressed further and asked what is behind this contemplation. I began scrambling for answers. “Is it study? Community? Or prayer? He said that those were right answers, but there is something more basic. I admitted I am clueless. While he was smiling, he said “It is faith.”

His answer is very simple and yet makes a lot of sense. We pray because we have faith in God. We go to the Church because we have faith in the merciful God who calls us to be His chosen people. As for myself, I entered the Dominican Order because I have faith that generous God invites me to this kind of life. We preach because we trust in the loving God and we want to share this God with others.

I have spent years studying philosophy and theology at one of the top universities in the Philippines, but when I meet the patients with so much pain and problems, I realize that all my achievements, knowledge and pride are coming to naught. How am I going to help patients having troubles to settle hospital bills with astronomical amount?  How am I going to help persons in their dying moments? How am I going to help patients who are angry with God or disappointed with their lives? However, as a chaplain, I need to be there for them, and the best preaching is in fact, the most basic one. It is not preaching in the forms of theological discourse, philosophical discussion, and a long sermon or advice. To preach here is to sharing my faith and to receive their faith. I am there to be with them, to listen to their stories and struggles, to share a little humor and laughter, and to pray together with them. To pray for them is the rare moments that I pray with all my faith because I know that only my faith I can offer to them.

In our Gospel today, we read that some Jews are murmuring because they have no faith in Jesus. Yet, Jesus does not only call them to simply trust in Him, but also to literally eat Him because He is the Bread of Life. The faith in the Eucharist is indeed a tipping point. It is either the craziest of the crazy or the greatest faith that can move even a mountain. As Christians who believe in the Eucharist and receive Jesus in every Mass, we are tremendously privilege and challenged to have and express this faith. However, when we fail to appreciate this meaning and beauty of this faith, and only receive the Bread of Life in a routinely and mechanical fashion, we may lose altogether this faith.

As people who go to Church every Sunday and receive the Eucharist on a regular basis, do we truly believe in Jesus the Bread of Life? Does our faith empower us to see God in the midst of our daily struggles and challenges? Do we have faith that we can share when it matters most?

Br. Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP