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Real New Year

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Solemnity of Mary Mother of God. January 1, 2017 [Luke 2:16-21]

“And Mary kept all these things, reflecting on them in her heart (Luk 2:19).”

mary-mother-of-godToday, the world is celebrating its new beginning. Many of us are going to the parties, watching fireworks, and dancing and singing. Surely, nothing is wrong with those. Yet, today, the Church decides to go against the tide and celebrates something else, or someone else: Mary the Mother of God. To make it worse, today is a holiday of obligation, meaning we need to go to the mass whether we like or not.  I remember attending the Eucharistic mass on January 1 in my own parish, and the priest never dropped a single greetings of a Happy New Year to the congregation. What a kill-joy!

We may ask, “Why do we still need to celebrate this solemnity at the beginning of the year?”  Firstly, it is just fitting to remember Mary as the mother of Jesus within the context of Christmas. Thus, exactly a week after the birth of Christ, we honor the woman who has offered her womb, her body and her whole life to God. Secondly, we are reminded that the true beginning is not only something marked in our calendar, or with outward celebrations. The real beginning takes place inside minds and hearts. Like in the process of pregnancy and birthing, initially, the change is not obvious. It happens inside the silent womb, and it takes some time before the embryo grows bigger and makes its presence felt. The process is difficult, hard to understand, and oftentimes painful. Yet, within that womb is a life that carries with it a future, unpredicted, yet exciting and hopeful.

When the Angel Gabriel announced the News to Mary, she was troubled and confused. But, she was certain that her life was in great danger. Unlike some modern societies wherein unmarried women who get pregnant are just normal, the ancient Jewish community was ready to punish such women. Mary was with a child practically outside of marriage, and she had to bear with all the consequences, There could be a great shame to her family, her future husband, Joseph, and herself. The baby might be called a bastard son for his entire life. And finally, she with her baby could be stoned to death. Yet, her faith in God was greater than her fear. She courageously carried in her womb, the little baby that would be the future of the world.

Ten years ago, in 2006, the Dominican mission in Indonesia began in utter simplicity. We were only two Indonesian priests, Frs. Adrian and Robini, and a Filipino counterpart, Fr. Terry and a lay missionary, Ms. Jemely. We had practically nothing. No institution, no house, no money. We even stayed at a little and simple quarter inside a Diocesan seminary in Borneo. We had to work hard just to support our daily lives and we relied on the generosity of many people. Nobody among us was sure what future will bring, but we had faith in God. Now, after 10 years, we have grown significantly. We have two stable houses in Pontianak and Surabaya. Now we are ministering to the multitude of people through various apostolates. Of course, young and talented people come and join our way of life.

Mary teaches us to have faith in God because for Him, nothing is impossible. The future may be uncertain, frightening and dark, but ‘… the One who began a good work in you will continue to complete it until the day of Christ Jesus (Phil 1:6).’ This is the spirit of the true New Year, the soul of real change, the faith that animates us to move forward.

Bro. Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

Tahun Baru yang Sesungguhnya

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Hari Raya Maria Bunda Allah. 1 Januari 2017. Lukas 2: 16-21

“Tetapi Maria menyimpan segala perkara itu di dalam hatinya dan merenungkanny (Luk 2:19).”

happy-new-year-2017Hari ini, dunia merayakan tahun baru. Dan, banyak dari kita merayakannya dengan berpesta, menonton kembang api, menari dan menyanyi. Namun, hari ini, Gereja memutuskan untuk melawan arus dan merayakan sesuatu yang berbeda, Maria Bunda Allah. Apalagi, hari ini telah ditetapkan sebagai hari raya kewajiban yang berarti kita harus pergi ke gereja suka atau tidak. Saya ingat menghadiri Ekaristi pada 1 Januari di paroki saya di Bandung, dan sang imam tidak pernah sekalipun memberi ucapan Selamat Tahun Baru kepada jemaat sampai misa selesai!

Kita mungkin bertanya, “Mengapa kita harus masih merayakan Bunda Allah pada awal tahun?” Pertama, mengingat Maria sebagai ibu Yesus dalam konteks Natal adalah sesuatu yang tepat secara theologis dan liturgis. Jadi, tepat seminggu setelah kelahiran Kristus, kita menghormati wanita yang telah mempersembahkan rahimnya, tubuhnya dan seluruh hidupnya kepada Tuhan. Kedua, kita diingatkan bahwa awal yang benar tidak hanya sesuatu yang ditandai di dalam kalender kita, atau dengan perayaan-perayaan besar penuh kesenangan. Awal yang sejati terjadi di dalam diri kita. Seperti dalam proses kehamilan dan melahirkan, pada mulanya, perubahan ini tidak begitu jelas. Hal ini terjadi di dalam rahim, dan dibutuhkan beberapa waktu sebelum embrio tumbuh lebih besar dan membuat kehadirannya terasa. Proses ini sulit, tidak mudah untuk dipahami, dan kadang-kadang menyakitkan. Namun, di dalam rahim ini ada hidup yang membawa masa depan, yang belum begitu jelas, namun menarik dan penuh harapan.

Ketika Malaikat Gabriel memberitakan kepada Maria, dia menjadi bingung dan takut.  Maria tahu jika ia berkata ya, hidupnya aka ada dalam bahaya besar. Tidak seperti beberapa masyarakat modern dimana perempuan yang belum menikah dan hamil adalah sesuatu yang lumrah, komunitas Yahudi kuno siap untuk menghukum pelanggaran ini. Maria mengandung praktis di luar nikah, dan dia harus menanggung semua konsekuensinya. Ia akan membawa aib untuk keluarganya, tunangannya, Joseph, dan dirinya sendiri. Bayinya mungkin akan disebut anak haram. Dan akhirnya, dia dan bayinya bisa dirajam sampai mati. Namun, imannya kepada Allah lebih besar dari ketakutannya. Diapun berani menerima dalam rahimnya, bayi kecil yang akan menjadi masa depan dunia.

Pada tahun 2006, misi Dominikan di Indonesia dimulai dalam kesederhanaan. Kami hanya terdiri dari dua imam, Pastor Adrian dan Robini, dan rekan Filipina, Rm. Terry dan seorang misionaris awam, Ms. Jemely. Praktis kami tidak memiliki apa-apa. Tidak ada institusi, tidak ada rumah, tidak ada uang. Kami bahkan tinggal di rumah kecil dan sederhana di dalam seminari keuskupan di Kalimantan. Kami harus bekerja keras hanya untuk mendukung kehidupan kami sehari-hari dan kami bergantung pada kemurahan hati banyak orang. Tak seorang pun di antara kami yakin apa yang masa depan akan bawa kepada kami. Tetapi, kami terus beriman kepada Allah. Sekarang, setelah 10 tahun, kami telah tumbuh secara signifikan. Kami memiliki dua rumah yang stabil di Pontianak dan Surabaya. Sekarang kita melayani banyak orang melalui berbagai karya kerasulan. Tentu saja, orang-orang muda dan berbakat datang dan bergabung dengan kami.

Maria mengajarkan kita untuk memiliki iman kepada Allah karena bagi-Nya, tidak ada yang mustahil. Masa depan mungkin tidak pasti, menakutkan dan gelap, tetapi “bahwa Dia yang memulai pekerjaan yang baik di antara kamu akan terus melengkapinya sampai hari Kristus Yesus (Fil 1:6).” Ini adalah semangat Tahun Baru yang benar, sebuah jiwa dari perubahan nyata, sebuah iman yang menjiwai kita untuk bergerak maju.

Frater Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

Christmas: Not Caesar, but Jesus

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Christmas Eve. December 24, 2016. Luke 2:1-14

“She gave birth to her firstborn son. She wrapped him in swaddling clothes and laid him in a manger, because there was no room for them in the inn. (Luk 2:7)”

christmas-1The story of Nativity of Jesus Christ began with a great person in ancient time. He was Caesar Augustus. He was considered to be one of the greatest Roman Emperors because during his reign, he was able to establish peace and prosperity within his territory. The people adored him and worshiped him as the Savior and the Son of God. He was the hero of the ancient world, but fortunately, he was not the hero of Christmas.

From the great Roman world, we are brought to the small village Bethlehem. Here in this almost insignificant place, we meet the simple and poor couple from another small town, Nazareth in Galilee. They are Joseph, the righteous carpenter, and his expecting young wife, Mary. But, there is no room in the inn, perhaps because the inn is full of people, or because people do not want to receive the poor couple who might not be able to pay the rent. Consequently, Mary has to give birth at the place of animals and simply places her firstborn baby on the manger. This is the story of a lowly couple at the most wretched place on earth. Yet, this is actually our story of real Christmas.

Our salvation is not found in the strongest fortified palace, neither on riches nor prosperity. Our happiness lies in the most unlikely place: at the poor manger in the smallest town of Bethlehem. Our salvation comes not from the greatest emperor with his achievements and honor, but from a meek and defenseless baby. And this is the Good News of the first Christmas.

It is a good news for us because we can be truly happy even without all the new clothes, new gadgets, and all gifts coming from the Malls or shopping centers. It is a good news for us because we can be hopeful even if we are still struggling with so many problems in life, financial difficulties, health issues, relationship meltdowns, and more. God chooses to be born into the families torn by separations. Jesus is born inside war-torn places like in Aleppo in Syria and Mosul in Iraq. Christ is born in poor shanties, amidst the people who never taste an even decent Christmas Eve’s meal.

When Fr. Timothy Radcliffe, OP, former Master of the Order of Preachers, once visited the Dominican sisters in northern Rwanda. It was just after the civil war, generally between the Hutus and Tutsis. The place was frightening and anytime armed groups might ambush them. The sisters’ convent was also marked with bullets holes, sign of battle and skirmish. Inside the convent were the sisters, both the Hutus and Tutsis, and many have lost their family members during the war. Fr. Timothy was there on Christmas Eve, and despite the pain and fear, the entire community decided to celebrate the Eucharist and the birth of Christ together.  In tears yet in joy, the baby was born among them and baby Jesus becomes the sign of hope for a better future.

Christmas shakes our belief in many Caesar we hold dearly, Caesar of wealth, Caesar of power, Caesar of fame. In Christmas, we are reminded that God became man and embraced all our limitations, our sorrow, and pains, and points to a future hope for all of us.

Br. Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

One Shepherd

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24th Sunday in Ordinary Time. September 11, 2016 [Luke 15:1-10]

“Rejoice with me because I have found my lost sheep (Luk 15:6).”

parable-lost-sheep-good-shepherdThe parable of the lost sheep subtly speaks of who we are fundamentally to Jesus. We are all His sheep and He is our shepherd. Whether we faithfully remain inside the sheepfold or go astray, we are still His sheep.

From this truth, we may ask ourselves. Why is it that some of us are going astray? Why are some of us no longer going to the Church or not active in the parish? Why are some abandoning the Church? Why do some turn to be our enemies and haters? We might be easily tempted to say that that is their fault. But, we are sheep of the same flock, sharers of the same pasture and have the same Shepherd. In one way or another, we might be responsible for our brothers and sisters who stray.

It is easy to pass the blame on others, but do we ever bother to ask why they fail? We tend to see them as problems to be solved, objects to dissect into logical parts. We no longer see them as our brothers and sisters, our co-sheep in Jesus’ sheepfold. Our brothers are no longer going to Church perhaps because we no longer care to help them. Our sisters are leaving the Church perhaps because we are living like hypocrites.

 The war on drugs in the Philippines has caused more than two thousand lives in just two months. As one national news outlet remarks ‘the bodies continues pilling up’. Indeed, many of them are small-time drug-pushers and addicts, and if we look at them as mere problems and pests to the society, death seems the fastest and easy answer. But, if we have headache, do we cut the head? Do we ever wonder why they fall victims of that deadly narcotics? A Lion share of those who got killed were actually poor people. Do we ever lift a finger to alleviate their poverty? Our ignorance and negligence may have indirectly led them into poverty and misery.

Fr. Gerard Timoner III, OP, our provincial, used to teach an idea of brothers shepherding brothers in the seminary. This means that the responsibility of taking care of our brothers in formation does not only rest only on the formators, but also on every brother. We need to become shepherds to one another, especially when the shepherds seem to stray away. Recently, he met us and shared what he gained from the Dominican General Chapter in Bologna last August. He emphasized that to promote vocation is not only about recruiting new members, but also nurturing and safeguarding the vocation of our own brothers in the Order.

To become a sheep of Christ means that we are also part of a bigger sheepfold. As Jesus takes care of each one of us, so we need to take care of one another. As the Good Shepherd reaches out to the lost sheep, we shall stretch ourselves to meet those who are lost in their journey. Surely, it is difficult, but they are still our brothers and sisters, fellow-sheep of Christ.

Br. Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

Satu Gembala, Satu Kawanan Domba

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Minggu ke-24 pada Pekan Biasa. 11 September 2016 [Lukas 15: 1-10]

“Bersukacitalah bersama-sama dengan aku, sebab dombaku yang hilang itu telah kutemukan (Luk 15:6).”

lost-sheepPerumpamaan tentang domba yang hilang sebenarnya berbicara tentang siapa diri kita dan relasi mendasar kita dengan Yesus dan sesama. Kita semua domba-Nya dan Dia adalah gembala kita. Apakah kita domba yang setia berada di dalam gembalaan, atau domba yang tersesat, kita tetap domba-domba-Nya.

Dari kebenaran ini, kita bertanya: Mengapa sebagian dari kita sesat? Mengapa sebagian dari kita tidak lagi pergi ke Gereja atau aktif di paroki? Mengapa beberapa meninggalkan Gereja? Mengapa beberapa akhirnya menjadi musuh dan pembenci Gereja? Biasanya kita akan dengan mudah menyatakan bahwa ini adalah kesalahan mereka. Namun, bukankah kita semua adalah domba dari kawanan yang sama, berbagi padang rumput yang sama dan memiliki Gembala yang sama? Jika ada saudara kita yang tersesat, kita juga ikut bertanggung jawab.

Sangat mudah untuk menyalahkan orang lain, tapi apakah kita pernah bertanya mengapa mereka gagal dan hilang. Kita cenderung melihat mereka sebagai masalah untuk diselesaikan, objek rusak siap untuk dibuang. Kita tidak lagi melihat mereka sebagai saudara-saudari kita, domba-domba gembalaan Yesus. Mungkin, saudara-saudari kita tidak lagi pergi ke Gereja karena kita tidak lagi peduli dengan kesulitan mereka. Mungkin, mereka meninggalkan Gereja karena hidup kita tidak lagi menjadi kesaksian iman dalam Yesus.

Kebijakan pemerintahan baru di Filipina untuk memerangi narkoba telah mencapai titik yang memprihatinkan. Lebih dari dua ribu jiwa telah melayang hanya dalam waktu dua bulan. Memang, banyak dari mereka yang terbunuh adalah pengedar skala kecil dan pengguna, dan jika kita melihat mereka hanya sebagai masalah dan hama bagi masyarakat, kematian tampaknya jawaban tercepat dan mudah. Tapi, jika kita sakit kepala, apakah kita akan memotong kepala kita? Apakah kita pernah bertanya mengapa mereka menjadi korban dari jerat narkoba? Sebagain besar dari mereka yang tewas sebenarnya adalah orang miskin. Narkoba menjadi solusi instan mencari uang atau menghilangkan lapar. Apakah kita pernah berusaha untuk mengentaskan kemiskinan mereka? Ketidakpedualian kita secara tidak langsung telah menyebabkan mereka jatuh ke dalam kemiskinan, kesengsaraan dan narkoba.

Rm. Gerard Timoner III, OP, provincial kami di Filipnia, selalu mengajarkan kami bahwa  ‘brothers shepherding brothers’ atau menjadi pengembala bagi sesama frater di seminari. Ini berarti bahwa tanggung jawab untuk menjaga dan merawat frater-frater di formasi tidak hanya terletak pada formator, tetapi juga pada setiap frater. Kita perlu menjadi gembala bagi sesama, terutama ketika para gembala utama tampak jauh. Baru-baru ini, ia juga berbagi dengan kami apa yang ia peroleh dari Kapitel Umum Dominikan di Bologna, Italia, bulan Agustus lalu. Dia menekankan bahwa untuk mempromosikan panggilan Dominikan tidak hanya berarti sibuk merekrut anggota baru, tetapi lebih penting adalah memperhatikan dan menjaga panggilan dari saudara-saudara kita sendiri di dalam Ordo.

Untuk menjadi domba-domba Kristus berarti bahwa kita juga adalah bagian dari kawanan domba yang lebih besar. Seperti halnya Yesus menjaga setiap dari kita, kita juga perlu untuk menjaga satu sama lain. Sebagai Gembala yang Baik mencari domba yang hilang, kita juga akan mencari saudara-saudari kita yang hilang dalam perjalanan mereka. Tentunya, tidak mudah, tapi kita akan selalu ingat bahwa mereka juga masih saudara-saudara kita, domba-domba Kristus, seperti kita.

Frater Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

God of Life

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 10th Sunday in Ordinary Time. June 5, 2016 [Luke 7:11-17]

“He stepped forward and touched the coffin; at this the bearers halted, and he said, “Young man, I tell you, arise! (Luk 7:14)”

Jesus raises the son of the Widow of NainThe bible seems to contain a lot of death. Almost all the characters in the Bible tasted death. Some were lucky and enjoyed peaceful end, like Abraham, David and Joshua. Yet, a lot more endured tragic one. Abel was murdered by his own brother. Moses passed away just at the doorstep of the Promised Land. James the son of Zebedee was beheaded, and countless unnamed individuals who were victims of wars, diseases and calamities. In today’s Gospel, a young man died presumably due to illness and left his widowed mother alone. The Bible time was bad period to live.

We are living in a better world where life expectation is significantly higher than the time of Jesus. With modern medical technologies and well-trained and professional medical practitioners, we are enjoying the greater possibility to live longer. Had the young man of Nain lived today, he would not have died early. Yet despite all these advancements, death remains a most certain reality. As Benjamin Franklin said, “In this world nothing can be said to be certain, except death and taxes!” This may lead us to think that God is a kind an uncaring God that allows even His people to suffer and receive violent death.

Jesus then came into the rescue and moved by his compassion, He brought the young man to life. To raise people from the death is one of the greatest miracles of Jesus, and this not only recorded in Luke, but in all the four Gospels. This story of young man of Nain resembles the story of the daughter of the synagogue official in Matthew 9 and Mark 5, and the story of Lazarus, the brother of Mary and Martha in John 11. Yet, we understand that the miracle will not last long. The young man would finally die again. Jesus seemed to cheat death and gives false hope to the widow and the crowd who expected the ‘the great prophet’.

Jesus’ miracles are not a quick-fix to many problems we have, but basically pedagogical, meaning they were designed to teach us a core value. Jesus comes into the story precisely to correct the mindset of the people on God. While the sorrowful widow and the lethargic crowd marched toward certain graveyard, a symbol of despair, Jesus stopped them and pointed to a different direction. They cannot find God among the dead, since He is not the god of the dead, but of the living (Mrk 12:27). Undeniably, we are going to die, but live is not about dying, but about living, and living life to the fullest.

    Yes, we die every day because of our sins, failures, and problems. Like the crowd, we march hopelessly toward our graveyard and despair. We are crushed by the weight of the financial issues. We are down by heavy workload. We are depressed by difficulties in the family. We forget to live fully as we focus our attention on death. But, we must not be hopeless, because our God is not the god of death, and His Son comes to bring us to life once again. “I came so that they might have life and have it more abundantly (John 10:10).”

 Together with St. Paul, we shall boldly say, “We are afflicted in every way, but not constrained; perplexed, but not driven to despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed; always carrying about in the body the dying of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be manifested in our body (2 Cor 4:8-10).”

Br. Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

Tuhan Kehidupan

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Minggu Biasa ke-10. 5 Juni 2016 [Lukas 7: 11-17]

“Yesus berkata, ‘Hai anak muda, Aku berkata kepadamu, bangkitlah! (Luk 7:14)”

Jesus raises the son of the Widow of Nain 2Tampaknya Alkitab mengandung banyak kematian. Hampir semua tokoh di dalam Alkitab meninggal dunia. Beberapa dari mereka beruntung karena meninggal dalam damai, seperti Abraham, Daud dan Yosua. Namun, kebanyakan mengalami kematian tragis. Abel dibunuh oleh saudaranya sendiri. Musa meninggal sebelum ia bisa masuk Tanah Perjanjian. Yakobus, rasul pertama yang menjadi martir setelah dipenggal. Dan kita tidak lupa sangat banyak individu yang tak bernama menjadi korban perang, penyakit dan bencana alam di Alkitab. Dalam Injil hari ini, seseorang meninggal dalam usia muda dan meninggalkan ibunya yang janda sendirian. Masa ini adalah masa buruk untuk tinggal dan hidup.

Kita bersyukur karena kita hidup di dunia yang lebih baik di mana ekspetasi hidup jauh lebih tinggi daripada zaman Yesus. Dengan teknologi medis modern dan praktisi medis yang terlatih dan handal, kita bisa menikmati kwantitas dan kualitas hidup yang lebih baik. Jika saja pemuda dari Nain hidup hari ini, dia tidak akan mati dalam usia muda. Namun, dengan semua kemajuan yang kita miliki, kematian tetap menjadi realitas yang tidak terhidarkan. Tak salah jika Benjamin Franklin berkata, “Di dunia ini tidak ada hal yang pasti kecuali kematian dan pajak.” Hal-hal ini dapat memdorong kita untuk berpikir bahwa Allah adalah tuhan yang tidak peduli dengan ciptaan-Nya dan mengizinkan kita untuk menderita dan akhirnya kehilangan hidup ini.

Tergerak oleh belas kasihan, Yesus menghidupkan kembali sang pemuda. Membangkitkan orang dari kematian merupakan salah satu mujizat terbesar Yesus, dan ini tidak hanya tercatat dalam Injil Lukas, tetapi dalam keempat Injil. Kisah pemuda dari Nain menyerupai kisah anak perempuan dari kepala rumah ibadat di Matius 9 dan Markus 5, dan kisah Lazarus, saudara Maria dan Marta di Yohanes 11. Namun, kita paham bahwa sang pemuda yang dihidupkan kembali akhirnya akan menemui kematian lagi. Yesus tampaknya sekedar mensiasati kematian dan memberikan harapan palsu kepada sang janda dan orang banyak yang mengharapkan kedatangan ‘nabi besar’.

Kita perlu memahami bahwa mujizat-mujizat Yesus bukanlah solusi instan untuk permasalah kita, tetapi pada dasarnya adalah pedagogis, yang berarti mujizat dirancang untuk mengajari kita nilai-nilai utama. Yesus datang untuk memperbaiki pola pikir bangsa Israel dan kita tentang Tuhan. Saat ibu janda yang berduka dan kerumunan yang lesu berjalan menuju kuburan, yang menjadi simbol keputusasaan, Yesus menghentikan mereka dan menunjuk ke arah yang berbeda. Mereka tidak dapat menemukan Allah di antara orang mati, karena Dia bukan Tuhan orang mati, melainkan orang hidup (Mrk 12:27). Tak dapat disangkal, kita semua akan menghadapi kematian, tetapi hidup bukanlah tentang kematian, tapi tentang hidup, dan bagaimana kita menghidupi hidup sepenuhnya.

Ya, kita mati setiap hari karena dosa-dosa kita, kegagalan, dan permasalahan. Seperti orang-orang yang menyertai sang janda, kita berjalan menuju kuburan keputusasaan. Kita remuk oleh beratnya masalah keuangan. Kita luluh karena beban kerja yang berat. Kita tertekan oleh kesulitan dalam keluarga. Kita lupa untuk hidup secara penuh karena kita memusatkan perhatian kita pada kematian. Tapi, kita tidak boleh putus asa karena Allah kita bukanlah Allah kematian namun kehidupan, dan Putra-Nya datang untuk membawa kita sekali lagi kepada hidup. “Aku datang supaya mereka memiliki hidup dan memiliki lebih berlimpah (Yoh 10:10).”

Bersama dengan St. Paulus, kita akan berani mengatakan, “Dalam segala hal kami ditindas, namun tidak terjepit; kami habis akal, namun tidak putus asa; kami dianiaya, namun tidak ditinggalkan sendirian, kami dihempaskan, namun tidak binasa. Kami senantiasa membawa kematian Yesus di dalam tubuh kami, supaya kehidupan Yesus juga menjadi nyata di dalam tubuh kami. (2 Kor 4: 8-10).”

Frater Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

Wounds of Christ

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Second Sunday of Easter – Divine Mercy Sunday. April 3, 2016 [John 20:19-31]

 “Unless I see the mark of the nails in his hands and put my finger into the nailmarks and put my hand into his side, I will not believe (John 20:25).”

jesus n thomas The request of Thomas was a bit strange. To recognize the risen Lord, Thomas demanded that he would be able to touch the wounds of Christ. But, why did Thomas look for the wounds of Jesus? He could have asked to see Jesus’ face, or to touch Jesus’ nose. He had been Jesus’ disciple for some years, and surely, Thomas would not have any difficulty to recognize Jesus. Why wounds?

I guess one of the reason is that Thomas looked for the wounds because he could identify himself with that very wounds that Jesus bore.  Thomas was searching for himself as much as for Jesus. Deep inside his being, Thomas admitted that he is the wounds of Christ, indeed all of the disciples. Thomas who once said, “Let us go to die with Him (John 11:16)!” ran away when Jesus was arrested. Peter, the leader, denied Jesus three times. Judas sold Him for a price of slave. The rest were leaving Him alone to the hand of His murderers. The stories of disciples are the stories of failure, cowardice and betrayal. They have crucified Jesus. They were the wounds of Christ.

We are also the wounds of Christ. Ours are the stories of failure, selfish ambition and unfaithfulness. Some of us might have betrayed our friends just to gain certain personal benefits. Some of us might have do violence even to our beloved ones. Some of us might have told lies to protect our good reputation and cover up our mistakes. In his book, Blood and Earth, Kevin Bales wrote on how our desire for cheaper goods encourages the modern day of human slavery in the third world countries. Who knows that our cellular phone we use to read this reflection are, to certain extent, the products of people working in subhuman conditions in Africa and Asia. And who knows our choice of food has damaged the million acres of soil and hurt the mother earth.

Just like the disciples, we are weak, broken and wounded. We have crucified Jesus and we recognize the wounds of Jesus as ourselves. Yet, we must not miss the point of Easter. Yes, we are the wounds, but we are the wounds of the Risen Christ. Yes, we are weak, frail and sinful, but we do not lose hope because we do not carry our broken selves alone. Jesus is carrying us, and all our imperfection, and transforms them in His resurrection. When in January 2015, Pope Francis visited Tacloban city, Philippines that was devastated by the typhoon Yolanda, he was deeply saddened by the destruction that it brought and thousand lives that it had destroyed. In this face of utter destruction, Pope Francis pointed his hands to the crucified Lord, and said to survivors,

 “So many of you have lost everything. I don’t know what to say to you. But the Lord does know what to say to you. Some of you have lost part of your families. All I can do is keep silence and walk with you all with my silent heart. Many of you have asked the Lord – why lord? And to each of you, to your heart, Christ responds with his heart from the cross. I have no more words for you. Let us look to Christ. He is the Lord. He understands us because he underwent all the trials that we, that you, have experienced.”

Thomas focused only on the wounds, but when he began to touch Jesus and saw the Risen Lord, he exclaimed, “My Lord and My God.” Christian are not to escape from the sufferings of this world nor to be in despair, but we are to face the trials of life and hopeful even if we are weak, because Jesus who has embraced the worst of this world, finally rose and brought us together in his body.

Bro. Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno

Luka-Luka Yesus

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Minggu Paskah Kedua – Minggu Kerahiman Ilahi. 3 April 2016 [Yohanes 20:19-31]

 “Kalau saya belum melihat bekas paku pada tangan-Nya, belum menaruh jari saya pada bekas-bekas luka paku itu dan belum menaruh tangan saya pada lambung-Nya, sekali-kali saya tidak mau percaya(Yoh 20:25).”

wounds of jesusDi dalam Injil hari ini, permintaan Thomas agak aneh. Untuk mengenali Tuhan yang bangkit, Thomas menuntut bahwa dia harus menyentuh bekas paku di tubuh Kristus. Tapi, mengapa Thomas mencari luka-luka Yesus? Dia bisa saja meminta untuk melihat wajah-Nya atau menyentuh hidung-Nya. Dia adalah murid Yesus yang hidup bersama Dia selama beberapa tahun, dan tentunya, Thomas tidak akan memiliki kesulitan untuk mengenali Yesus. Lalu, mengapa luka-luka Yesus?

Thomas mencari luka-luka Yesus karena ia bisa mengidentifikasi dirinya sendiri dengan luka-luka yang diterima Yesus di salib. Thomas sebenarnya sedang mencari dirinya sendirinya dan tidak hanya Yesus. Jauh di dalam jiwanya, Thomas mengakui bahwa ia adalah luka-luka Kristus. Thomas yang pernah berkata, “Marilah kita pergi untuk mati bersama-Nya (Yoh 11:16)!”, tapi ia akhirnya melarikan diri ketika Yesus ditangkap. Petrus, sang pemimpin, menyangkal Yesus tiga kali. Yudas menjual-Nya dengan harga seorang budak. Selebihnya meninggalkan-Nya ke tangan para pembunuh-Nya. Kisah-kisah para murid adalah kisah kegagalan, kelemahan dan pengkhianatan. Mereka telah menyalibkan Yesus. Mereka adalah luka-luka Kristus.

Kita juga adalah luka-luka Kristus. Kita adalah kisah kegagalan, keegoisan dan ketidaksetiaan. Kita mungkin telah mengkhianati teman-teman kita hanya untuk mendapatkan keuntungan pribadi. Kita mungkin telah melakukan kekerasan bahkan terhadap orang-orang yang kita cintai. Kita mungkin telah berbohong untuk melindungi reputasi baik kita dan menutupi kesalahan kita. Dalam bukunya, Blood and Earth, Kevin Bales menulis tentang bagaimana hasrat kita untuk barang-barang yang lebih murah mendorong perbudakan manusia modern di negara-negara dunia ketiga. Siapa tahu bahwa telepon selular yang kita gunakan untuk membaca refleksi ini, sebenarnya, adalah hasil kerja dari orang-orang yang bekerja di kondisi yang tidak manusiawi di Afrika dan Asia. Dan siapa tahu pola konsumsi makanan kita sebenarnya telah merusak jutaan hektar tanah dan menyakiti sang bumi.

Sama seperti para murid, kita lemah, tak berdaya dan terluka. Kita telah menyalibkan Yesus dan kita menyadari luka-luka Yesus adalah diri kita sendiri. Namun, kita tidak boleh lupa pesan dari Paskah. Ya, kita adalah luka-luka, tapi kita adalah luka-luka Kristus yang bangkit. Ya, kita lemah, rapuh dan berdosa, tapi kita tidak kehilangan harapan karena kita tidak menanggung luka-luka ini sendirian. Yesus menanggung kita, dan semua ketidaksempurnaan kita, dan mengubah hal-hali ini di dalam kebangkitan-Nya. Pada Januari 2015, Paus Fransiskus mengunjungi kota Tacloban, Filipina yang luluh lantah oleh topan Yolanda, dan dia sangat sedih dengan kehancuran ia lihat dan akan ribuan hidup yang telah hilang di kejadian ini. Di hadapan kehancuran total ini, Paus Fransiskus menunjukkan tangannya kepada Tuhan di salib, dan berkata kepada para penduduk Tacloban,

 “Begitu banyak dari kalian telah kehilangan segalanya. Saya tidak tahu harus berkata apa. Tetapi Tuhan tahu harus berkata apa bagimu. Beberapa dari kalian telah kehilangan bagian dari keluarga kalian. Yang bisa saya lakukan adalah berdiam diri dan berjalan dengan kalian semua dengan hati saya yang diam. Banyak dari kalian telah bertanya kepada Tuhan – mengapa Tuhan? Dan kepada setiap dari kita, Kristus menjawab dengan hati-Nya dari salib. Saya tidak punya kata-kata lagi untuk kalian. Mari kita lihat kepada Kristus. Dia adalah Tuhan. Dia mengerti kita karena ia menjalani semua cobaan dan penderitaan yang telah kita alami.”

Thomas hanya terfokus pada luka, tetapi ketika ia mulai menyentuh Yesus dan melihat Tuhan yang Bangkit, ia berseru, “Ya Tuhanku dan Allahku.” Kita menjadi seorang Kristiani bukan untuk melarikan diri dari penderitaan dunia ini atau juga menjadi putus asa, tapi untuk menghadapi cobaan hidup dengan penuh harapan karena walaupun kita lemah, rapuh dan berdosa, Yesus yang telah mengalami yang terburuk dari dunia ini, tapi akhirnya bangkit dan membawa kita bersama-sama didalam tubuh-Nya yang mulia.

Frater Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

Mercy: Our Second Chance

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Third Sunday of Lent. Luke 13:1-9 [February 28, 2016]

“It may bear fruit in the future (Luk 13:9)”

jesus n fig treeThe heart of the parable of the Good Gardener is God’s Mercy. Not only He is merciful, but He is the Mercy itself. Pope Francis fittingly wrote that the name of God is Mercy. God cannot but be merciful. We are like the tree that was fruitless and useless, but God gave us a second chance. Jesus, our Holy Gardener, even exerts His utmost effort to take care of us, making sure that grace of God in constantly pour upon us.

In my readings on Mercy, I stumbled upon this little story of a young French soldier who deserted the armies of Napoleon but was soon caught. He was court-martialed and condemned to death. His mother pleaded with Napoleon to spare her son’s life. Napoleon said that the crime was dreadful; justice demanded his life. The mother sobbed and begged for mercy. Napoleon replied that the young man did not deserve mercy. And the mother said, “I know that he does not deserve mercy. It would not be mercy if he deserved it.”

God’s mercy flows from His overflowing love. However, because God so loves us, He also allows us grow in freedom. God gave us a second chance, but it is up us to grab it or blow it up. Just like St. Augustine once said, “God created us without us, but He did not save us without us.” Thus, the greatest enemy of mercy is hopelessness. We assume that we no longer are no longer able to change. We refuse God’s second change because we see it as completely useless. Indeed, to cash despair is the chief work of the devil. Author, lawyer, economist, and actor Ben Stein says, “The human spirit is never finished when it is defeated. It is finished when it surrenders.” Our failures, weaknesses condition us to believe that we are worthless, and the moment we doubt the mercy of God, the devil is victorious.

England could have been lost to Germany in World War II, had not been for Winston Churchill. He was the prime minister of England during some of the darkest hours of World War II. He was once asked by a reporter what his country’s greatest weapon had been against Hitler’s Nazi regime that bombarded England day and night. Without pausing for a moment he said, “It was what England’s greatest weapon has always been hope.”

Pope Francis, through his own initiative declared this year as the Jubilee Year of Mercy, and He opens up the gates of mercy all over the world so that everyone may feel God’s love and compassion. Yet again, we never receive that grace, unless we pass through the threshold of that gates. We need to believe that His Mercy conquers all our limitations, and His Love covers multitude of sins. When Pope Francis visited the US in September 2015, he made a point to meet the prisoners and he said to them, “Let us look to Jesus, who washes our feet. He is ‘the way, and the truth, and the life’. He comes to save us from the lie that says no one can change. He helps us to journey along the paths of life and fulfillment. May the power of his love and his resurrection always be a path leading you to new life.”

Br. Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP