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Mercy of the Father

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Fourth Sunday of Lent. March 6, 2016 [Luke 15:1-3, 11-32]

“His father caught sight of him, and was filled with compassion (Luk 15:20).”

 

prodigal son 2The Parable of the Prodigal Son is one of the most moving stories of Jesus and has been regarded as the all-time favorite. The parable is so beautiful that it moved one of the earliest heretics, Marcion of Sinope, to single out the Gospel of Luke as the only valid Gospel. Why does the parable gain such honor among Jesus’ parables? I guess one of the reasons is the unexpected twist of event appears in the parable. Like when we watch movies in the cinema, flat and predicted plot of movies will cause boredom, but movies with sudden and unforeseen twists often create breath-taking excitement. The twist of the parable is that the Mercy of God that goes beyond any human expectation and limitations.

The lost son would simply expect that he would be treated as one of his father’s servants after sinning so greatly. The elder son, meanwhile, expected the same thing would happen to the bad boy. But, the father did not subscribe to their human expectation. He did sudden yet amazing turn: he accepted both as who they really are, his sons. God’s mercy surpasses all our human limitations and logic, because we are all his children.

The story of Rudolf Höss may illustrate how unimaginable God’s Mercy is. Rudolf Höss was a commandant of the Auschwitz concentration camp and he was practically responsible for the extermination of 2.5 million prisoners, mostly Jews, but also Christians like St. Maximillian Kolbe, and Edith Stain. At the end of the war, he was arrested, tried and received capital punishment for his crime against humanity. He was then imprisoned in Wadowice (the birthplace of St. John Paul II) and he would be executed at the very place he used to rule, Auschwitz. Höss was in great fear not only because of his imminent death penalty but also of cruel torture from prison guards. To his surprise, he was treated mercifully by the guards, notwithstanding the fact that their wives and children were also victims of Nazi’s cruelty. Their mercy moved him to tears and conversion. Höss was a baptized Catholic, but left his faith in his adulthood. He eventually asked for a priest for confession. It was truly difficult to find one, until they discovered Fr. Wladyslaw Lohn, a Jesuit who was the chaplain of the sisters of Our Lady of Mercy at the Shrine of Divine Mercy, Krakaw. Höss made his confession and received the underserved forgiveness. A day before he died, he was able to receive the Holy Communion, kneeling and in tears.

Sometimes, we are like the lost son that we have turned away from God and our lives have been so messed up, that we are losing hope of God’s mercy. Sometimes, we become the elder son who has lived a righteous and good life, but we forget how it is to be merciful to others. Thus, this is not coincidence that Pope Francis chose Luke 6:36 as the motto of the Jubilee of Mercy: ‘Merciful like the Father’. The jubilee of Mercy is both time for us to ask mercy as well as to give mercy. The lost son is in need of mercy and the elder son needs to be merciful. Are we humble enough to ask mercy and forgiveness from God and others? Are we ready to be merciful like the Father?

Br. Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

Go Down from the Mount!

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Second Sunday of Lent. February 21, 2016 [Luke 9:28-36]

“He took Peter, John, and James and went up the mountain to pray (Luk 9:28).”

transfiguration 2 For St. Luke, Jesus is a man of prayer. Luke fondly wrote in his Gospel that Jesus would pray before the decisive events in His life and mission. Jesus prayed the whole night before he chose His disciples (Luk 6:12). One of the reasons why Jesus cleansed the Temple of Jerusalem was that He was well aware of the main function of the holy Temple: House of Prayer (Luk 19:46). He reminded his disciples to pray especially in facing trials and tribulations (Luk 21:36). Before He was embracing His passion and death, He prayed at the garden (Luk 22:44). Finally, enduring a brutal torture, He saved His last breath even to pray for those who have crucified Him (Luk 23:34).

Another important event wherein Jesus spent time in prayer was the Transfiguration. Two evangelists, Matthew and Luke, placed the story of Transfiguration into their gospels, but only Luke who told the purpose of why Jesus and His three disciples went up to the Mount. It was to pray. For Luke, the Transfiguration is a prayer event. Indeed, reflecting today’s Gospel in the context of prayer will bring us a deeper understanding on our relationship with God.

Firstly, Jesus invited the disciples to climb the Mount and pray. Our desire to meet Him and to pray is actually God’s initiative. If we are able to pray, it is because God calls us and enables us to communicate with Him. Our Liturgy of the Hour prayer begins with a verse ‘O God, come to my assistance (Ps 51:15).’ It is a humble acceptance that without His grace and aid, we are not able to pray. We, Catholics, open our prayer with the sign of the cross and mentioning, “In the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit (Mat 28:19).” This was born out of conviction that apart from the Holy Trinity, our human words will be futile. St. Paul said it best when he wrote to the Romans, “the Spirit too comes to the aid of our weakness; for we do not know how to pray as we ought, but the Spirit itself intercedes with inexpressible groanings (Rom 8:26).”

Secondly, the Transfiguration teaches us that sometimes, our prayers give sense of delight and contentment, but this is not the most important. We are like the three disciples who were filled with awe in the presence of transfigured Jesus. It is the moment when we feel peace before the Blessed Sacrament. We are enjoying the recitation of the Holy Rosary. We are inspired by a good homily and feel nourished by the Holy Communion in the Eucharist. Sometimes, I attended Worship Service loaded with upbeat songs and electrifying preaching. Truly, the feeling was ecstatic and liberating, especially for persons with messed up lives.

Surely, like the disciples, we want to enjoy the delight for eternity. Yet, our good Lord did not want us to be rooted there. He asked the disciples to go down and face the world. If we rather stay and refuse to go down, then our prayers are no longer genuine and sincere. They become an addiction that helps us escape from the realities. If this happens, Karl Marx’ adage, ‘Religion is the opium to the society’ turns to be a reality.

St. Pope John Paul II reminded us that the Transfiguration would lead eventually Jesus and his disciples to that passion in Jerusalem. Prayer should then empower us to face life with courage and humility, and not to give us a venue to run away from life. The Eucharist, as the summit of all Christian worship, does not end by saying ‘Stay and enjoy some more!’ The last phrase in the Mass is always missionary in spirit, like ‘Go and preach the Gospel’. We are to share the fruits of prayers to others. If we truly find Christ in our prayer, then together with Christ, we shall go down from the Mount and bravely walk to our Jerusalem.

 Br. Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

Turun Gunung

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Minggu Prapaskah Kedua. 21 Februari 2016 [Lukas 9: 28-36]

“Yesus membawa Petrus, Yohanes dan Yakobus, lalu naik ke atas gunung untuk berdoa. (Luk 9:28).”

 

transfigurationBagi St. Lukas, Yesus adalah seorang doa. Lukas menulis dalam Injilnya bahwa Yesus berdoa sebelum menghadapi peristiwa-peristiwa penting di dalam hidup dan misi-Nya. Yesus berdoa sepanjang malam sebelum ia memilih murid-murid-Nya (Luk 6:12). Salah satu alasan mengapa Yesus membersihkan Bait Allah Yerusalem dari berbagai malapraktik adalah bahwa Dia sangat menyadari fungsi utama dari Bait Allah ini: Rumah Doa (Luk 19:46). Dia mengingatkan para murid-Nya untuk berdoa terutama saat menghadapi cobaan dan penderitaan (Luk 21:36). Sebelum Ia menghadapi sengsara dan wafat-Nya, Dia berdoa di taman (Luk 22:44). Akhirnya, saat Ia berada di kayu salib, Dia menyimpan nafas terakhirnya bahkan untuk berdoa bagi mereka yang telah menyalibkan-Nya (Luk 23:34).

Peristiwa penting lainnya dimana Yesus menghabiskan waktu dalam doa adalah Transfigurasi. Dua penginjil, Matius dan Lukas, menulis kisah Transfigurasi dalam Injil mereka, tapi hanya itu Lukas yang mengatakan tujuan mengapa Yesus dan ketiga murid-Nya naik ke Gunung. Yakni untuk berdoa. Bagi Lukas, Transfigurasi adalah sebuah momen doa. Sungguh, merenungkan Injil hari ini dalam konteks doa akan membawa kita pada pemahaman yang lebih dalam tentang hubungan kita dengan Tuhan.

Pertama, Yesus mengajak para murid untuk mendaki Gunung dan berdoa. Hasrat kita untuk bertemu dengan-Nya dan berdoa sebenarnya adalah inisiatif Allah. Jika kita mampu berdoa, itu karena Tuhan memanggil kita dan memungkinkan kita untuk berkomunikasi dengan-Nya. Liturgi Brevir selalu dimulai dengan ayat “Ya Allah, bersegeralah membuka mulutku (Mzm 51:15).” Ini adalah keyakinan bahwa tanpa rahmat dan bantuan-Nya, kita tidak dapat berdoa. Kita, umat Katolik, membuka doa kita dengan tanda salib dan menyebutkan, “Dalam nama Bapa, dan Putra dan Roh Kudus.” Hal ini lahir dari keyakinan bahwa terpisah dari Allah Tritunggal, kata-kata manusiawi kita akan sia-sia di dalam doa. St. Paulus menyatakan hal ini dengan sangat baik ketika ia menulis kepada jemaat di Roma, “Roh Allah datang menolong kita kalau kita lemah. Sebab kita tidak tahu bagaimana seharusnya kita berdoa; Roh itu sendiri menghadap Allah untuk memohonkan bagi kita dengan kerinduan yang sangat dalam sehingga tidak dapat diucapkan. (Rom 8:26).”

Kedua, Transfigurasi mengajarkan kita bahwa kadang, doa-doa kita memberikan kenikmatan dan kepuasan, tapi ini bukan yang paling penting. Kita seperti tiga murid yang sangat takjub di hadapan Yesus yang berubah wujud. Ini adalah saat ketika kita merasakan kedamaian di hadapan Sakramen Mahakudus. Kita menikmati doa Rosario. Kita terinspirasi oleh homili dan merasa diperkuat oleh Komuni Kudus dalam Ekaristi. Kadang, saya menghadiri worship service sarat dengan lagu-lagu pujian dan khotbah menggebu-gebu. Sesungguhnya, hal ini memberi perasaan sangat gembira dan membebaskan apalagi bagi mereka yang memiliki banyak permasalahan dalam hidup.

Tentunya, seperti para murid, kita ingin menikmati kegembiraan dalam doa ini lebih lama lagi dan membangun ‘kemah’. Namun, Tuhan tidak ingin kita tinggal lama di sana. Dia meminta para murid untuk turun dan menghadapi dunia. Jika kita memilih tinggal dan menolak untuk turun, doa-doa kita tidak lagi tulus. Mereka menjadi candu yang membantu kita melarikan diri dari realitas hidup. Jika ini terjadi, perkataan Karl Marx bahwa ‘Agama adalah opium bagi masyarakat’ sungguh menjadi kenyataan.

St. Paus Yohanes Paulus II mengingatkan kita bahwa Transfigurasi akan bawa akhirnya Yesus dan murid-muridnya pada sengsara dan wafat-Nya di Yerusalem. Doa sungguhnya harus memberdayakan kita untuk menghadapi hidup dengan keberanian dan kerendahan hati, dan tidak memberi kita tempat untuk melarikan diri dari kehidupan. Ekaristi, sebagai puncak dari semua ibadah Kristiani, tidak berakhir dengan mengatakan “Tetap tinggal dan jangan pulang!” Ungkapan terakhir dalam Misa selalu dalam semangat misionaris, seperti “Pergilah, kita diutus!”. Kita diutus untuk berbagi buah dari doa-doa kita kepada sesama. Jika kita benar-benar menemukan Kristus dalam doa kita, bersama dengan Kristus, kita akan turun Gunung dan berjalan menghadapi Yerusalem kita.

 Frater Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

Humility: A Tough Job

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Second Sunday of Advent [December 6, 2015] – Luke 3:1-6

 “A voice of one crying out in the desert: ‘Prepare the way of the Lord, make straight his paths (Luk 3:4).”

We want to be successful, to be the number one, and to be the winners. Turning out to be number two after all-out effort is just excruciatingly painful. Today’s gospel affirms this natural inclination to be dominant. Luke began his Gospel by enumerating the alpha males in that time: Caesar Tiberius of Rome, Pontius Pilate of Judea, Herod of Galilea, and Annas and Caiaphas, the high priests of Jerusalem. They were the standard and embodiment of success. Perhaps, they were Barack Obama, Steve Jobs and Mark Zuckerberg of our time. People might adore, envy or fear them, yet still they were the axis where the people revolved.

However, the second part of the Gospel tells us a different character. His name is John the Baptist. Doubtless he was a man of integrity and courage. He converted all his energy and devotion into fearless action and passionate preaching. He was the rising star, and people followed and admired him. I guess it was a dream of every preacher when people from all walks of life come and listen to us. Yet, he received a particular divine mission that he was to prepare the way for someone greater than him. He was not the Messiah.

He might question God, “Why can I not become the number one? I have the skills, right attitudes and strong character. People come to me, they love me and are ready to give their lives for my cause. But, why does God just want me to be second after the Christ? I should be the Christ!” Adding to his inner conflict was some Israelites asking and pressing him to be their Savior. Perhaps, the greatest doubt hit him hard when he was well aware that Jesus, his own Galilean cousin, was the Messiah. “Hi, I am better than this small guy. I am true-blooded Jew, son of Zachariah, the respectable priest, while he was a Galilean, son of Joseph, a poor carpenter. I preach boldly while He cutely narrates parables. I fast and keep vigil while He is busy attending parties. And remember, I am the one who baptized Him!”

However, despite the inner tension and overwhelming emotions, John never fell into the great temptation. In fact, he publicly declared, “He must increase, I must decrease! (John 3:30)” John became the embodiment of true humility. A wise man once said that humility before the authority is a duty, humility before equal is a courtesy, but humility before people whom we know that we are much better, is nobility and holiness. John struggled a lot to follow God’s will that went against the very grain of his nature as leader, yet without this inner conflict, his humility is just another politeness. Because of this true humility, John is always remembered throughout generation as the greatest prophet.

We want things so badly, but we know that this is not God’s will. As a seminarian, I am struggling a lot to remain faithful because life inside is often demanding and difficult and knowing that I can have better and easy life outside. A wife who is fighting for her marriage and refuses to leave her sick husband for a better and richer guy, may be another John. A man who is sacrificing his dream job offer because he needs to spend more time with his kids and to educate them to be true Christians, may be another John. John the Baptist is the appropriate main character of Advent season because he teaches us one precious value that true humility is following God’s will and this is a tough job.

 

Br. Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

Kerendahan hati: Tidak Mudah!

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Kedua Minggu Adven [6 Desember 2015]

Lukas 3:1-6

 

“Ada suara yang berseru-seru di padang gurun: Persiapkanlah jalan untuk Tuhan, luruskanlah jalan bagi-Nya (Luk 3: 4).”

Kita ingin sukses, menjadi nomor satu, dan menjadi pemenang. Tentunya, hanya menjadi nomor dua setelah usaha habis-habisan menjadi number satu adalah menyakitkan. Injil hari ini menegaskan kecenderungan dominan alami ini. Lukas memulai Injilnya dengan menyebutkan ‘alpha males’ pada zaman itu: Kaisar Tiberius di Roma, Pontius Pilatus di Yudea, Herodes di Galilea, dan Hanas dan Kayafas, imam besar di Yerusalem. Mereka adalah standar dan perwujudan dari keberhasilan. Mungkin, mereka adalah Barack Obama, Steve Jobs dan Mark Zuckerberg di zaman kita. Ada yang memuja, ada yang membenci dan yang lain takut kepada mereka, namun mereka tetap menjadi sumbu di mana orang-orang berotasi.

Namun, bagian kedua dari Injil mengambarkan sosok yang berbeda. Namanya adalah Yohanes Pembaptis. Tidak diragukan lagi dia adalah seseorang yang berintegritas dan berani. Dia tak kenal takut dan berkhotbah dengan berapi-api. Dia adalah bintang baru, dan orang-orang mengikuti dan mengaguminya. Namun, ia menerima misi ilahi khusus bahwa ia mempersiapkan jalan bagi seseorang yang lebih besar daripadanya. Ia bukanlah Mesias.

Dia mungkin mempertanyakan Allah, “Mengapa saya tidak bisa menjadi nomor satu? Saya memiliki kemampuan, prilaku dan karakter yang kuat. Orang-orang datang kepada saya, mereka mencintai saya dan siap untuk memberikan hidup mereka untuk tujuan saya. Tapi, mengapa Tuhan hanya ingin saya menjadi orang nomer dua setelah Kristus? Aku seharus menjadi Mesiah!” Konflik batinnya pun semakin bertambah setelah beberapa orang Israel membujuk dia untuk menjadi Mesias. Namun, pergulatan tersebarnya adalah ketika Dia menyadari bahwa Yesus, sepupunya dari Galilea, adalah Mesias. “Hai, saya lebih baik dari sepupu kecil saya ini. Saya Yahudi tulen, anak Zakaria, imam terhormat, sementara ia adalah seorang Galilea, anak Yusuf, seorang tukang kayu miskin. Saya berkhotbah dengan berani sementara Dia adalah sang pendongeng perumpamaan. Saya berpuasa dan terus berjaga sementara Dia sibuk menghadiri pesta. Dan ingat, saya adalah orang yang membaptis-Nya! “

Namun, meskipun ketegangan dan pergulatan yang luar biasa, Yohanes tidak pernah jatuh ke dalam godaan besar ini. Bahkan, ia secara terbuka menyatakan, “Ia harus makin besar, tetapi aku harus makin kecil. (Yoh 3:30)” Yohanes menjadi perwujudan dari kerendahan hati yang sejati. Seorang bijak pernah berkata bahwa kerendahan hati dihadapan otoritas adalah kewajiban, kerendahan hati dihadapan rekan yang setara adalah sopan santun, tapi kerendahan hati dihadapan orang-orang yang kita tahu bahwa kita jauh lebih baik, adalah kekudusan. Yohanes bergulat dengan dirinya sendiri untuk mengikuti kehendak Allah yang sangat bertentangan dengan naluri kepemimpinannya, namun tanpa konflik batin ini, kerendahan hatinya tidak akan teruji dan hanya menjadi sekedar basa-basi. Karena kerendahan hati yang sejati ini, Yohanes pun akan selalu dikenang sepanjang generasi sebagai nabi terbesar.

Ada kalanya kita sangat ingin sesuatu yang baik terjadi pada hidup kita, tetapi kita tahu bahwa ini bukan kehendak Allah. Sebagai seorang frater, saya bergulat untuk tetap setia karena hidup di dalam biara banyak tuntutan dan tidak mudah, dan juga godaan bahwa saya dapat memiliki kehidupan yang lebih baik dan mudah di luar sana. Seorang istri yang berjuang mempertahankan pernikahannya dan menolak untuk meninggalkan suami yang sakit, dan hidup dengan seorang pria yang lebih tampan dan lebih kaya, adalah seorang Yohanes di zaman ini. Seorang pria yang mengorbankan tawaran akan pekerjaan impiannya karena dia perlu menghabiskan lebih banyak waktu dengan anak-anaknya dan mendidik mereka untuk menjadi orang Katolik sejati, adalah Yohanes. Tidak salah jika Yohanes Pembaptis terpilih menjadi karakter utama pada masa Adven ini karena ia mengajarkan kita satu nilai berharga bahwa kerendahan hati yang sejati adalah mengikuti kehendak Allah dan ini adalah pekerjaan yang tidak mudah.

 

Frater Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP