Nineteenth Sunday in Ordinary Time [August 12, 2018] John 6:41-51

Amen, amen, I say to you, whoever believes has eternal life. I am the bread of life.  (Jn 6:47-48)

I am currently having my pastoral clinical education in one of the hospitals in the Metro Manila. Aside from visiting the patients and attending to their spiritual needs, we also have processing sessions guided by our supervisor.  During one of the sessions, our supervisor asked me, “Where is the ultimate source of your preaching?” As a member of the Order of Preachers, I was caught off guard. My initial reaction was to say our deeply revered motto, “Contemplare, at contemplata aliis tradere (to contemplate, and to share the fruits of one’s contemplation).” He pressed further and asked what is behind this contemplation. I began scrambling for answers. “Is it study? Community? Or prayer? He said that those were right answers, but there is something more basic. I admitted I am clueless. While he was smiling, he said “It is faith.”

His answer is very simple and yet makes a lot of sense. We pray because we have faith in God. We go to the Church because we have faith in the merciful God who calls us to be His chosen people. As for myself, I entered the Dominican Order because I have faith that generous God invites me to this kind of life. We preach because we trust in the loving God and we want to share this God with others.

I have spent years studying philosophy and theology at one of the top universities in the Philippines, but when I meet the patients with so much pain and problems, I realize that all my achievements, knowledge and pride are coming to naught. How am I going to help patients having troubles to settle hospital bills with astronomical amount?  How am I going to help persons in their dying moments? How am I going to help patients who are angry with God or disappointed with their lives? However, as a chaplain, I need to be there for them, and the best preaching is in fact, the most basic one. It is not preaching in the forms of theological discourse, philosophical discussion, and a long sermon or advice. To preach here is to sharing my faith and to receive their faith. I am there to be with them, to listen to their stories and struggles, to share a little humor and laughter, and to pray together with them. To pray for them is the rare moments that I pray with all my faith because I know that only my faith I can offer to them.

In our Gospel today, we read that some Jews are murmuring because they have no faith in Jesus. Yet, Jesus does not only call them to simply trust in Him, but also to literally eat Him because He is the Bread of Life. The faith in the Eucharist is indeed a tipping point. It is either the craziest of the crazy or the greatest faith that can move even a mountain. As Christians who believe in the Eucharist and receive Jesus in every Mass, we are tremendously privilege and challenged to have and express this faith. However, when we fail to appreciate this meaning and beauty of this faith, and only receive the Bread of Life in a routinely and mechanical fashion, we may lose altogether this faith.

As people who go to Church every Sunday and receive the Eucharist on a regular basis, do we truly believe in Jesus the Bread of Life? Does our faith empower us to see God in the midst of our daily struggles and challenges? Do we have faith that we can share when it matters most?

Br. Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP