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Fish and Bread

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Third Sunday of Easter [May 5, 2019] John 21:1-19

ichthus 2If we observe the Gospel readings of the past days and Sundays, we will notice that most of them are speaking about the risen Christ’s appearances to His disciples. One unnoticeable yet interesting feature in these stories is that of the presence of food.

The two disciples who walk to Emmaus, invite Jesus to have a dinner. Jesus takes the bread, says the blessing, breaks it, and gives it, and He disappears. The two disciples come to their senses, and realize He is Jesus [Luk 24:30]. When Jesus appears to the Eleven and other disciples, they are terrified. To dispel their doubt on His resurrection, Jesus presents His body and eats the fish given to Him [Luk 24:42]. And in today’s Gospel, Jesus invites His seven disciples to a breakfast at the shore of the Lake of Tiberias. After another miraculous catch, Jesus prepares bread and fish for the disciples who are no longer baffled by the appearance of their Master [John 21:13].

We may ask, “Why bread and fish?” These are simple food that are often available at Jewish household. Yet, looking deeper, bread and fish possess a profound meaning. Bread and fish are earliest symbol of Christ and Christians. Bread, especially the breaking of the bread, is the technical biblical name for the Eucharist. In the Acts of Apostles, the first Christians gather around the apostles for the teaching and breaking of the bread [Acts 2:42]. On a Sunday, Paul leads the community of Troas in worship as he preaches and breaks bread [Acts 20:7]. Fish, in Greek, is “Ichthus” and it stands for “Iesous Christos Theos Hyios Soter”, meaning Jesus Christ God Son [and] Savior. The symbol of fish was scattered inside catacombs of Rome as a sign of Christian gathering in time of persecution.

The question lingers: why does the risen Lord ask for food and invites the disciples to eat? Firstly, eating food is one of the most basic activities of human being. It points to our biological functions that sustains our bodily life and growth. The spiritless body neither consumes food, nor the bodiless spirit enjoys meals. Jesus shows His disciples that his resurrection is not a matter of spiritual enlightenment, but truly a bodily reality. His disciples neither see a spirit floating in the air, nor simply believe that their Teacher is alive in their hearts. The tomb is empty because Jesus, including His body, has risen.

Secondly, eating together does not only satisfy our tummy, but it also brings people closer together. While we are enjoying food, we cannot but share our thoughts and hearts to each other. Eating together builds not only the body, but also the dialogue and community. One of my favorite activities in the convent is the meal time, not because I am fond of eating, but we share a lot of stories and opinions. We practically speak about anything under the sun, from the latest movie, Avenger Endgame, the current political issues, to theological discussion on St. Thomas Aquinas. We also tell our joys, concerns and worries in our ministry and our future as a community. Simple food, yet great bonding.

Upon the simple reality of eating together, Jesus builds His community. In a shared meal, He retells His stories of painful passion and shameful death, and unearths its profound meanings especially as the fulfillment of the Scriptures. The events of his death used to be absurdity and loss of hope, but in the dining table, the risen Lord restores the faith, hope and love that go dim.

Jesus leaves us the Eucharist, the breaking of the bread, the sacred meal. Like the first disciples, it is here that we discover the risen Lord who shares His body as a spiritual food, and His Word as the meaning of our life. In the Eucharist, we are assured that the worst of this world does not have the last say, and the battle against absurdity has already been won.

Deacon Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

Fear and Forgiveness

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Second Sunday of Easter/ Divine Mercy Sunday [April 28, 2019] John 20:19-31

risen christ 2Today is the Divine Mercy Sunday. From the Gospel, Jesus institutes the sacrament of reconciliation as He bestows His Holy Spirit upon the Disciples. He grants them the divine authority to forgive (and not to forgive) sins and charges them to be the agents of Mercy. While it is true that only priests can minister the sacrament of confession, every disciple of Christ is called to be an agent of Mercy and forgiveness. Yet, how we are going to be the bearers of Mercy and Forgiveness? I think we need to understand first the dynamic of fear and peace.

Fear is one of the human most basic emotions. It makes us flee from impending danger and normally, it is good and necessary for our survival. Yet, what is unique with us humans is that the object of fear is not only physical real danger like an earthquake, fire, or venomous animals, but it extends to moral judgment. When we commit a mistake, we are afraid of the judgment as well as the consequences. Quite often too, fearful of the judgment and condemnation, we are run away and hide. In fact, the story of fear is a primordial story. We recall our first parents, Adam and Eve. After they violated the Law of God, they realized that they have terribly sinned against the Lord, and afraid of God’s judgment, they hid.

After the passion and death of Jesus we find out that Jesus’ disciples themselves are afraid and hiding. The disciples lock themselves inside the room because they are afraid. However, the real fear is not from the Jewish authority or the Roman troops, but from Jesus’ judgment. We remember that Judas handed over Jesus to the Jewish authority, Peter, the leader, denied Jesus three times, and most of the disciples were running away. Even before the crucial moments of Jesus, they have deserted their Master and Messiah. In a court martial, a soldier who deserts his army, especially during the pick of the battle, is considered a traitor not only to the army, but to the entire nation, and he deserves no less than capital punishment. The disciples are hiding because of fear that Jesus will bring His severe judgment, and get back on them. The disciples are afraid that Jesus may come anytime, condemn them, and throw a fireball on them.

Indeed, Jesus comes to them, but he brings not condemnation but the gift of peace, “Shalom”. This peace only ensues from forgiveness. This peace, however, is not the absence of judgment, but rather it presupposes one. Unless the disciples recognize and own up their terrible mistakes, they will not appreciate Jesus’ forgiveness and mercy. The peace will be just a mirage, and fear still reigns.

To become an agent of Mercy, we first dare to pronounce judgment. If we pretend that the sin never happens, and keep telling ourselves that everything is just fine, we deceive ourselves and never become sincerely peaceful. Indeed, it is difficult, but as we cannot heal unless there is prognosis, we cannot truly forgive unless there is judgment.

Just last week, several suicide bombers blew themselves up at several churches in Sri Lanka and killed hundreds of Christians. A religious sister, who lost several of her community members in the explosion, wrote an open letter to the perpetrators. She judged that what they did was an act of terrorism, pure evil. Yet, she reminds them that Christians will not be cowed and afraid because we know how to forgive. She said that the Catholic Church remains an open-door Church because she is not afraid to welcome everyone including those who tried to destroy her.

There is no peace without forgiveness, and there is no forgiveness and mercy without true judgment.

Deacon Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

Mary Magdalene and Resurrection

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Easter Sunday [April 19, 2019] John 20:1-9

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Mary Magdalene is a female disciple that loves her Teacher deeply, and being a woman, there is something that she teaches us. Luke describes her in his Gospel as a woman “from whom seven demons have come out” [see Luk 8:2]. It must be a terrible experience to be tormented by seven demons, and when Jesus heals her, she expresses her deep gratitude by following Jesus. As one of Jesus’ disciples, she is proven to be the most faithful to her Teacher. When many followers of Jesus are running away to save their lives, and even Peter, the leading figure in the group, denies Jesus, Mary follows Jesus in His way of the Cross to the end. She received the insult Jesus receives, she bears the humiliation Jesus bears, she carries the cross Jesus carries. In fact, she is standing beside the cross together with the mother of Jesus and John the beloved.

However, Mary’s love is even bigger than death. She is the first person who visits the tomb early in the morning. We recall that after Jesus died on the cross, his body was hastily brought to the tomb by Nicodemus and Joseph Arimathea because the Sabbath was drawing near. During Sabbath, Jews are not allowed to bury the dead. Mary knows that Jesus’ body was not taken care of properly, and she wants to make sure that Jesus deserves the proper burial. She comes to the tomb to express her love for the last time for the Teacher by anointing the body of Jesus. Yet, she only sees the empty tomb. Fear seizes her. She may think that some bad guys stole, inflicted further damages and desecrated the body. Instinctively, she runs towards the men of authority after Jesus Himself, Peter and John.

After checking the tomb, Peter fails to understand, and he goes back to the house. She also does not understand and weeps for the loss of her love, but unlike Peter, Mary stays at the tomb. In utter confusion and meaninglessness, Mary does not abandon Jesus. Indeed, the Savior does not disappoint and gives Mary Magdalene a singular privilege to witness the resurrected Jesus. Her great love and fidelity lead her to the joy of Resurrection. She becomes the first preacher of Resurrection.

In the Gospel, often female disciples are depicted as a model of love and perseverance. God created man and woman as equal in dignity, but they differ in characters. Indeed, men like Peter, are the figures of authority, but women excel in what often is lacking in male disciples. I have visited many places in Indonesia and the Philippines, and I give talks and reflections, but one thing in common from these places, is that women often outnumber the men. I am newly assigned in Redemptor Mundi Parish, Surabaya, Indonesia, and a simple gaze will prove that more women are attending our daily morning masses.

Mary Magdalene, a woman disciple, shows to us that it is possible to love and to be faithful when things got tough and rough, when life throws us its trash, and when confusion and meaningless seem to reign. Mary is those women who unceasingly pray for the priests despite so many failures they have made Mary are those mothers who make daily sacrifices for their children despite being unappreciated. Mary is those religious sisters who serve the poor committedly despite many setbacks and trails. We must thank many Mary Magdalene around us. They show us that there love truly conquers death and that there is a resurrection in even the senseless empty tomb.

Happy Easter!

Deacon Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

Our Core Memories

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Palm Sunday of the Lord’s Passion [April 14, 2019] Luke 19:28-40/Luke 23:1-49

“Blessed is the king who comes in the name of the Lord (Luk 19:38).”

jesus enter jerusalem 3One of the greatest gifts to humanity is the gift of memory. It gives us a sense of identity. Biology teaches us that almost all our body parts are being replaced over the years. One-year-old Stephen is biologically different from thirty-year-old Stephen. All bodily cells, with the sole exception of his eyes’ lens, are changed. What unites thirty-year-old Stephen with his younger self as well as his future self is his memory.

Not only does memory enable us to connect to ourselves, but it also relates us to other people. We are able to recognize our parents, siblings, and friends because we remember all the good thing, we have received from them. Our memories shape who we are. Thus, the illness that ruins our memories like Alzheimer, is one of the most heinous. Persons with Alzheimer gradually can no longer remember persons who love them; they even cannot recall doing their basic functions like eating and going to the restroom.

One of the uniqueness of human beings is that we do not have only individual memory, but we have communal memory. These common memories are passed through generations, and these form the identity of a group. We are Indonesians, Filipinos, Indians, Americans, or other nations because we have common memories that unite us as a nation. When a nation is inflicted by a kind “Alzheimer” that destroys its common memory, it begins to lose its identity as a nation. Cardinal Robert Sarah from Guinea reminds that Europe is in crisis and in danger of dissolution. He argues that the reason is that the European people began to forget their historical and cultural roots, their common memories.

We Christian share the core and fundamental memory. Palm Sunday or Jesus’ entrance to Jerusalem marks the beginning of the most important drama of the Gospel, the drama of the Holy Week. The memory was so significant to the early Christians that the episode was recorded in all four Gospels with great details (Mat 21:1-11, Mark 11:1-11, and John 12:12-19), though with some different emphases. We may even say that the Holy Week especially the Last Supper, the Passion, and Resurrection are the core and foundational memory of every true Christian.

This explains why the Church celebrates Holy Week every year, not because she simply wants to have big events, but because this celebration reconnects us with the core memories that make us as Christians. Yet, we do not only remember the events of the past; we are not just spectators. Through the power of the liturgy, we relive the fundamental stories of Jesus Christ. Together with Christ, we enter Jerusalem. Together with Him, we celebrate the Passover. Together with Him, we are persecuted, crucified and we die. Together with Him, we are buried in the dark tomb. But together with Him, we are raised from the dead.

However, it is our choice whether to follow Him or go against Him: to become people who shout “Hosanna” or people who cry “Crucify Him”; to become a disciple who walks the way of the cross or disciples who run away from Him; to be crucified with Jesus or to crucify Jesus. But it is only the true followers of Jesus who can together with Him be raised from the dead. Holy Week is our time to make that choice: to follow Jesus or to go against Him.

Deacon Valentinus Bayuhadi Rusneo, OP

The Woman and Jesus’ Mercy

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5th Sunday of Lent [April 7, 2019] John 8:1-11

adulterous woman 3Adultery is a serious sin according to the Law of Moses. It is a violence against the Basic Law, the Ten Commandments. It is in fact, one of the few crimes that are punishable by death [Lev 20:10]. Why so cruel? It is a grave sin because adultery profanes the holiness of marriage and the gift of sexuality. In the Book of Genesis, God has willed that man and woman through marriage and their sexuality participate in God’s work of creation and caring of creation. Since marriage is a sacred calling, violation to this holy mission is an utmost insult to God who calls man and woman into marriage.

Some Jewish people bring a woman caught in adultery to Jesus. It is a tough dilemma for Jesus who knows well the Law of Moses. If Jesus agrees to stone the woman, He upholds the Law of Moses, but He is going to invalidate His preaching of mercy and forgiveness. If Jesus refuses to condemn the woman, He violates the Law of Moses, condones the evil committed by the woman, and denies the justice of God. Stoning means he is not merciful but refusing to stone means he is not just. “Damned if you do, damned if you don’t”.

Jesus then begins to write on the ground. The Gospel does not specify what Jesus writes, but we may come up with an intelligent guess. In original Greek, to write is “grapho”, but in this episode, the word used is “katagraho”, and this can be translated as “to write against”. Jesus is writing the sins of the people who brought the woman. Jesus says, “Let the one among you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her (Jn. 8:7).” After Jesus reveals their sins, they realize that they themselves deserve to be stoned. They go away, leaving Jesus and the woman.

The Law of Moses states that both man and woman caught in adultery shall be punished, but where is the man? Jesus points out that she is merely a pawn used to trick Jesus, and some are ready to sacrifice this woman just to get what they want. Her humanity is disregarded, her identity as a daughter of God is trampled, and she is treated as a mere tool. Manipulating our neighbors, especially the weak and the poor, for our own gain is a graver sin than adultery!

Jesus knows that the woman has committed a serious sin, but she herself is a victim of injustice and more serious sin. Jesus surely hates evil, but He forgives the woman and gives her a second chance because He understands what has happened to her. She has fallen into sin because of her human weakness and temptation, but God is greater than all ugly things that has befallen her, if she just repents and goes back to God.

There was a movie entitled “Malena”. It was the story of a beautiful woman in an Italian rural village during World War II. She received news that her husband died in the war. After this, her father, her only family, also died when the German planes bombed their village. Because of the poverty and desperation to survive, she was forced into prostitution, even to serve the German soldiers. After the loss of German forces, the villagers condemned her not only as a whore but also as a traitor. She was expelled from the village with humiliation. Surprisingly, her husband came back to the village, alive. He learned of what happened to his wife. Instead of condemning his wife, and looking for another wife, he fetched his wife and brought her back to the village. He proudly walked with his wife around the village as if telling everyone, “it is not her fault that she becomes a prostitute. She is still my faithful wife!”

Mercy gives justice is the beauty. With mercy, we see the bigger picture of our own and other people’s failures. Mercy empowers us to be patient with others and ourselves.

Deacon Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

A Father Who Never Abandons His Son

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Fourth Sunday of Lent [March 31, 2019] Luke 15:1-3, 11-32

prodigal fatherThe Parable of the Prodigal Son is one of the most moving stories of Jesus and has been regarded as the all-time favorite. Why? I guess one of the reasons is the story of the Prodigal Son is also our story.

Let us look at some details of the parable especially the father and the younger son. The son demands his inheritance while his father is still alive and well. That’s a no-no! It simply means the son wishes his father’s death, and wills that he is no longer part of the family [see Sir 33:20-24]. The offended father has the authority to discipline the ungrateful son, but he does not! Because of his tremendous love for the son, he allows the son to get what he wants. Like the son, we often offend the Lord, wishing to be away from Him. We choose “the inheritance”, the good things God created like wealth, power, and pleasure above and over Him. We keep abusing His love and kindness, knowing that He is a Good Father.

However, the younger son’s action has a terrible consequence. The farther he is away from his father, the more pitiful his life becomes. The inheritance without the true owner is nothing but a passing shadow. The Jewish young man loses everything, and even becomes the caretaker of pigs, the very animal Jews hate! He becomes so low to the point of eating what the pigs eat. Like the younger son, without God, we become miserable. Yes, we may become richer, more powerful and famous, but we have lost our souls. We never become truly happy because these pleasurable things without God are mere addiction.

The son comes to his sense when he remembers his father and his life with him. Even the father is far away, it does not mean he is idle. He is drawing his lost son through good memories they share. No matter far we are from God, He is constantly pulling us back to Him through His mysterious ways. Yet, it remains our choice to heed the voice of our conscience but ignore it and plunge ourselves further into sin.

The parable also speaks about the father who is patiently waiting, looking forward to the day that his son returns home. The moment he sees his son from distance, without a second thought, he runs toward his son and embraces him and kisses him. The son never thinks that he deserves to be his son once more, and just wants to be treated like a servant. But, mercy precisely is to receive something we do not deserve. The father receives back his young man as his child.

Allow me to close this simple reflection with a story. In 1988, a terrible earthquake hit Armenia. In just four minutes, buildings crumbled, and thousands died. A man immediately ran to a school where his son studied. He had promised to his son that he would be there to fetch him. He saw that the school was now piles of rubbles. He rushed to the site where the class used to be. He started digging barehandedly. Some people tried to help him but stopped afterward. Some people discouraged him, saying, “It is useless. They are dead!” He refused to give up, and continue digging for hours. Then after more than 30 hours of searching, he heard a small voice from the rubble. He shouted, “Arman!” and he heard a response, “Father!” His boy was still alive, and together with him were other pupils. That day, the man had saved 14 children who got trapped. Arman told his friends, “I told you, my father will come no matter what!”

The parable of the Prodigal Son is so beautiful because it does not only reflect who we are but also reveals who our God is. He is a merciful Father who refuses to give up hope on us, however desperate we have become.

Deacon Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

A Story of a Fig Tree

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Third Sunday of Lent [March 24, 2019] Luke 13:1-9

“Sir, leave it for this year also, and I shall cultivate the ground around it and fertilize it; it may bear fruit in the future (Luk 13:8).”

fig tree 2It normally takes around three years for a fig tree to reach its maturity and fruition. If it does not produce fruit by that time, it is not likely to bear fruit at all. The owner has a reasonable right to cut the tree, but through the effort of the gardener, it is given another chance. Like the fig tree, through the effort of our Chief Gardener, the new Adam of eternal Eden, Jesus Christ, we are given another chance to change and be fruitful.

However, it is always easier said than done. In daily reality, it is not simply a matter of instantly erasing errors on the whiteboard, of flash and clear-cut change from bad guy to good guy, from villains to heroes. Some of us are merely entrapped in the evil structures or systems that promote sin in us and through us, and we simply do not know how to get out of it. Some of us are victims of vicious cycles of sin in our families or our societies that sooner or later turn us to be the perpetrators, and we are merely powerless to find the way out.

One time, I visited a place for the youth who conflicted with the Law. I met this teenager, Joseph, not his real name. He was arrested for stealing small amount of money, or petty theft. He shared to me his story that he was without parents, and he lived together with a band of snatchers. His elders in the group taught him how to steal and snatch, and after several practices and actual deeds, he developed the habit, not only to take the money, but also to desire for an easy money. He has been in the facility for several times, and every time he was released, he promised himself not to go back to that way of life. Yet, because he no longer knew what to do and where to go outside the facility, he once again stole something for him to fill his hungry stomach. Then, again he was caught.

Then, what does it mean to repent, to change? Is there any point we observe Lenten season every year, yet no apparent change seems to take place? We miss the point if we just think that Lenten season is only about instant change.

It is a story of a struggling fig tree to be fruitful and yet find itself facing desperate end, the story of struggling humanity. It is a story of a gardener who refuses to give up on his tree, a story of God who never loses hope in humanity. The Lenten season means that despite of all our imperfection and disfigured life, we refuse to succumb to despair. It means we take courage to fight hopelessness even when no actual fruit of change seems visible in our lives. It means we always hope in the Lord who never loses hope in us.

Deacon Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno

Moses and Transfiguration

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2nd Sunday of Lent [March 17, 2019] Luke 9:28-36

transfiguration 3One time, during a Bible class I facilitated, one of the participants asked me, “how was Peter able to recognize that it was Moses who stood beside Jesus during the Transfiguration?” It was a valid question, and yet I personally never thought of it. I thought of with several possible answers. Perhaps, Moses appeared bringing two stone tables of the Law. Perhaps, as Jesus was conversing with Moses and Elijah, Peter was able to pick up the names. Perhaps, the divine inspiration enlightened Peter’s mind on the identity of Moses. Eventually, I have to answer, “When you go to heaven, don’t forget to ask both Peter and Moses.”

The event of transfiguration is an important moment in the life of Jesus and His disciples. From here, Jesus begins his Passion toward Jerusalem and the cross. The transfiguration takes place to strengthen the faith of the disciples who will witness the gruesome events to be inflicted to their Teacher. However, the transfiguration is not only important for Jesus and His disciples, but surprisingly it is also the moment that Moses has awaited. Why so?

Moses was one of the greatest figures of the Old Testament. To him, the personal name of God was revealed (Exo 3:16). He challenged the great Pharaoh. He led the Hebrew people from the slavery of Egypt into the Promised Land, even passing through the Red Sea. He mediated the covenant between God and the Israel at Mount Sinai (Exo 20). For forty years, he patiently guided and educated the Israel in the desert. Through his hands, many miracles were performed. However, something happened in the desert. At Meribah, Israel complained and asked for water. Moses was instructed by God to command the rock to flow with water, but instead of saying the word, Moses struck his staff on the rock twice. The water indeed flowed but it displeased the Lord. God then said that Moses will not enter the Promised Land (Num 20:1-14). Indeed, Moses finally passed away at Mount Nebo, just before crossing the Jordan river.

It was a heartbreaking story. After faithfully following the Lord, leading the people through thick and thin of life, and bearing a lot of troubles that Israel created, a single mistake made him unable to taste the Promised Land. Both Jewish and Christian Biblical scholars have been puzzled by this difficult text. Indeed, we may keep questioning God for His unfair treatment. Fortunately, the story does not end there. Moses will surely enter the Promised Land, but he has to wait for someone: Jesus and His transfiguration. Truly, Moses does not only enter the Promised Land, but he also once again witnesses the Lord who appeared to him in the burning bush.

Reading the life of Moses without the transfiguration, we may bump into an image of God who is just but heartless, who judged Moses unworthy of entering the Promised Land because of a small error. Yet, with the transfiguration, God ties a loose end in the life of Moses. Like Moses, we may find some events in our lives, that are beyond our understanding, and violate our image of God who is love and mercy. Yet, God allows us to be puzzled and be at loss, in order that we may see how amazing God is going to tie the loose ends in our lives.

Deacon Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

Exodus

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First Sunday of Lent [March 10, 2019] Luke 4:1-11

missionary of charityThe Spirit leads Jesus to the desert and Jesus remains there for forty days. The questions are: why does the Holy Spirit bring Jesus to the desert? Why does it have to be forty days? If we are familiar with the Old Testament, we recall that the journey of the Israelites in the desert lasted for forty years – the great exodus. After the great escape from the slavery of Egypt, they needed to walk through the desert before entering the Promise Land. Yet, it is not simply about the story of greatest escape in the history, but how God formed Israel as His people. In desert, God made a covenant with Israel through the mediation of Moses. In desert, God gave the Law as the basic guide for the Israelites living as His people. In the desert, God provided them with water, manna from heaven, and protected them from their enemies. However, in the desert also, the Israelites rebelled against God. They made and worship the golden calf. They complained a lot, and they wanted to kill Moses. It was a foundational story that covered almost the four Books of Moses [Exodus, Leviticus, Numbers and Deuteronomy].

The Spirit brings Jesus to the wilderness because Jesus is going to enter into His Exodus. Jesus is the New Moses who leads the New Israel into the new exodus. If we want to follow Jesus and call ourselves as the Christian, we need to follow Jesus to the wilderness and the new Exodus. Yet, the desert is far from being a comfortable place. It is a place of trials and temptation. But, why does Jesus want us to follow Him into the place of trials? Because Jesus understands that faith without temptation is empty, hope without challenges is fantasy and love without sacrifice is cheap.

If we read closely the story of Israel in the desert, they could reach the Promised Land in just two-week time even by walking. But, why did it took them forty years? It is because when they were about to enter the Land, they became afraid of the native people who stayed there, and they complained against God. They were just one step away from the promised land, and yet they squandered the opportunity because they did not have faith in God. Then, God punished them, and placed them in the desert for forty years. They needed to learn the lesson in a hard way.

Living a comfortable life does not make us really grow in faith. In fact, it is in the harshest places that we discover God alive and fresh. When I visited the hospitals, meeting the patients with terrible sickness like cancer and kidney failure; when I visited the jails, talking to inmates, I witnessed the stronger faith, hope and love.

Once I met this lady, just called her Mary. She was a single mother, and her only child was a special child. His brain is shrinking, and he cannot do anything but clap his hands. It was a truly difficult situation, and what made it worse was when some other Christians who professed that Jesus is Lord and Savior said to her that the child was a curse. She was living in a cruel world, and terrible people around him. She was figuratively living in the wilderness. And I asked her what made her remain active in the Church. She said, “because I know God loves me through my special child.” Once again I saw a faith that moves a mountain.

Often it is through trials, challenges and the “desert” that we learn the true value of faith, hope and love.

Deacon Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

Heart

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Reflection on the 8th Sunday in Ordinary Time [March 3, 2019] Luke 6:39-45

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Prisoner praying during church ceremony at Naivasha Maxium Security Prison. During the church service some prisoners pray on their own. – 24.11.2012. Copyright: Ulrik Pedersen

These past three Sundays, we have been listening on the series of Jesus’ teachings given at the Plain [Luk 6:20-49]. Two Sundays ago, we read about the Beatitudes. This is the set of conditions that leads us to true happiness and blessedness. Last Sunday we discover some practical steps to achieve this Beatitude, like we shall love our enemies. And this Sunday, we find the heart of Jesus’ teachings: it is the formation of the heart.

In our contemporary world, the heart generally symbolizes the source of affection, passion and love. Filipinos love basketball, and they give their best support every time their national team compete in international tournaments. Their battle cry is “Laban! Puso!” literally translated as “Fight! Heart!” Surely, the heart here refers to the burning passion to overcome enormous challenges during the ball game.

When a lady is not sure whether to accept or not a man to be her boyfriend, we often advise her to follow her “heart”. When she has a new boyfriend and is in love, she calls him as her “sweetheart”. But, when she suddenly loses her boyfriend because of unexpected betrayal, she suffers an immense “broken heart”. Because of this traumatic experience, she refuses to love anymore, and she now possesses “the heart of stone.” Surely, a lot of hearts!

However, the word “Heart” in Bible has a slightly different meaning from our common understandings. Heart in the Bible is not just the source of our emotional life, but the center of the human life, vitality and personality. It is also the seat of human intellect, judgment and conscience. Thus, when Jesus says “A good person out of the store of goodness in his heart produces good…” it does not simply mean that person has the emotions that support him in doing good. It means a person has a fundamental judgement, stable attitude and permanent character to choose and do good, despite the contrary feelings he has. Good-hearted person can do good even person he hates. For Jesus, heart is not only affection, but it is also action.

In the context, the formation of the heart means the formation of the entire human person. Jesus understands that unless we possess the characters of a good man or woman, we are just staging a play, and become hypocrites [meaning actors] before other people.

How are we going to form our hearts? Jesus gives us a hint as He says, “from the fullness of the heart the mouth speaks.” The question then is: what fills our hearts? It is evil and wicked things, or good and holy things?

I am currently assigned in General Santos City, Mindanao, Philippines, and one of the highlights of my stay is when I visit and celebrate mass with the female inmates in the city jail. At first, I was hesitant and afraid to interact with them as I perceived them as being “criminals”. These are women with “wicked hearts”. But, I was totally wrong. When I prayed with them, I witnessed women prayed earnestly and deeply in faith. I met this woman, just call her Mary, and I listened to her story. She has been in the prison for five years, and due to ineffective justice system, her trial is still on going. She is a single mother with five children. She was caught using drugs, and she admitted it to escape from the reality of harsh life. She was crying as she narrated her story. And, I asked her what made endure her terrible situation. She simply answered, “I have God in my heart.”

We are living in much better condition than Mary, but do we have God in our heart? What fills our heart? Do we fill our hearts with Godly things? Do we allow God to reign in our hearts?

Deacon Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP