29th Sunday in the Ordinary Time. October 16, 2016 [Luke 18:1-8]
“…This widow keeps bothering me… (Luk 18:5)”
Getting tired and bored is unwanted yet unavoidable part of our lives. After doing things for a certain period of time, we get exhausted. Even if we are doing something we love, we are also bound to feel weary. Indeed, a man marries the woman he loves, but after sometime, encountering disappointments and problems, he begins to think whether he made the right decision. A woman loves dearly her teenage girl, but after sometime, her girl gets involved in substance abuse and runs away with his friends. She spends all her money and energy to win her daughter back yet to no avail, and she simply gets tired. As a religious brother, I love my vocation, but after years of waking up early, attending Mass and prayers, and plunging myself in rigorous study, I get bored.
In these times that we feel weak and weary, the temptation will set in and lure us to abandon our commitments. We are even emboldened to do crazy things and sin. We become like the judge in today’s Gospel, who “neither fear God nor respect human being’. We begin doing unthinkable things. We hurt people we love. We cause sufferings and misery to other people and ourselves.
However, we are so blessed that we have God who is like the nagging widow in the Gospel. He is knocking at our hearts day and night so that we may render justice to Him and our neighbors. Tirelessly He reminds us to be faithful to our commitments, repeatedly encourages us to persevere in doing good, and ceaselessly calls us back everytime we falter.
His unceasing care and ‘disturbance’ are manifested in subtle yet manifold ways. He places in us His subtle grace and joy in our daily prayer, despite boredom and sleepiness. He gives us family and friends who remain supportive to us in time of trials. He provides us with little blessings that we tend to ignore. One sustaining factor in my vocation, I believe, is that the Lord gives me a community. Indeed, sometimes living in a community is troublesome, but it provides also a structure and living ecosystem to support my Dominican religious life. My brothers will knock my door reminding me not to be late in prayer, encourage and evaluate my preaching, and in fact, correct me if I commit mistake. My community is my nagging God.
We may be tired of many things, exhausted in keeping our demanding commitments as spouses or parents, and bored of doing again and again our obligations as students or ministry as priests or religious. Yet, we remember we have our nagging God who persistently loves us and does not give up on us, even if we have already given up on ourselves. What we need to do is just open our eyes, ears and hearts to His subtle yet constant actions in us.
Br. Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP



Merasa lelah dan bosan adalah bagian dari kehidupan kita yang tak terhindarkan. Setelah melakukan hal-hal dalam jangka waktu lama, kita bisa kehabisan tenaga. Bahkan saat kita melakukan sesuatu yang kita cintai, kepenatan juga kadang melanda. Seorang pria yang menikahi wanita yang ia kasihi, tapi setelah menghadapi kekecewaan dan permasalahan rumah tangga, dia mulai berpikir apakah dia membuat keputusan yang tepat saat menikah dulu. Seorang ibu mencintai anak gadisnya yang beranjak dewasa, tapi ternyata sang gadis terlibat dalam penyalahgunaan narkoba dan melarikan diri dengan teman-temannya. Sang ibu menghabiskan semua uangnya dan tenaga untuk membawa putrinya kembali, namu semua usaha gagal, dan diapun lelah. Sebagai seorang biarawan, saya mencintai panggilan saya, tapi setelah bertahun-tahun bangun dini hari untuk mengikuti Misa harian dan doa brevir, dan juga setiap hari belajar filsafat dan theologi yang sulit, sayapun merasa bosan.
October is the month of the rosary. Allow me to reflect on this ancient yet ever new form of prayer. Why October? It all started when Pope Pius V, a Dominican, dedicated October 7 as the feast of Mary Our Lady of the Rosary after the battle of Lepanto. In this naval battle of October 7, 1571, the smaller Christian army fought the much larger and powerful Ottoman Turks’ forces that planned to invade Europe at the Gulf of Lepanto in Greece. While the battle was being waged, the Holy Pontiff and all Christians prayed the rosary asking the intercession of Our Lady. After hours of confrontation, the enemy’s fleet was roundly defeated.
Oktober adalah bulan rosario. Izinkan saya untuk menulis tentang doa yang sebenarnya kuno tetapi selalu baru. Mengapa Oktober adalah bulan rosario? Semuanya berawal ketika Paus Pius V, seorang Dominikan, mendedikasikan 7 Oktober sebagai pesta Maria Ratu Rosario setelah pertempuran Lepanto. Pada 7 Oktober, 1571, di Teluk Lepanto di Yunani, tentara Eropa berjuang melawan armada laut Ottoman Turki yang jauh lebih besar dan kuat, yang merencanakan untuk menyerang Eropa. Sementara pertempuran sedang berlangsung, sang Paus dan semua umat berdoa rosario meminta perantaraan Bunda Maria. Setelah berjam-jam konfrontasi, armada musuh pun dikalahkan.
Reading through today’s Gospel, it seems to have faith is to perform some sort of magical power. If I have faith, I can create rice field on the seabed. If I have faith, I can made a Lamborghini car out of pile of garbage. If I have faith, I can transform my voice like Ed Sheeran. But, faith is not like that. It is not a magical show to entertain us. It is neither an instant answer to our wishes. Yet, it remains true that even the smallest of faith can make the difference.
Membaca Injil hari ini, tampaknya memiliki iman itu membuat kita memiliki kekuatan super. Jika saya memiliki iman, saya dapat menanam padi di dasar laut. Jika saya memiliki iman, saya bisa membuat mobil Lamborghini dari tumpukan sampah. Jika saya memiliki iman, saya bisa mengubah suara saya seindah Ed Sheeran. Tapi, iman tidak seperti itu. Iman bukanlah pertunjukan sulap untuk menghibur kita. Iman bukanlah jawaban instan bagi keinginan-keinginan kita. Namun, benar adanya bahwa bahkan iman terkecil pun dapat membuat berbedaan yang berarti dalam hidup kita.
When Abraham said to the tormented rich man, “My child, you have received what was good during your life,” does it mean I will be thrown to the netherworld as well? I admit I have received so many good things in my life. I enjoy three good meals a day. I am studying in one of the best schools in the country. I do not have to worry about the security and future of my life. Many of us are enjoying the good things in this world, and we may ask ourselves, “are we going to have the same fate with this rich man in the parable?”
Ketika Abraham berkata kepada orang kaya yang tersiksa di alam maut, “Anak, ingatlah, bahwa engkau telah menerima segala yang baik sewaktu hidupmu.” Apakah saya juga akan berakhir di alam maut? Saya mengakui bahwa saya telah menerima begitu banyak hal baik dalam hidup. Saya makan tiga kali sehari. Saya belajar di salah satu sekolah terbaik di Filipina. Saya tidak perlu khawatir tentang keamanan dan masa depan hidup saya. Banyak dari kita yang menikmati hal-hal baik di dunia ini, dan kita bisa bertanya pada diri kita sendiri, “Apakah kita akan memiliki nasib yang sama dengan pria kaya dalam perumpamaan ini?”
We were created in the image of God. Thus, our true happiness is only in God. As St. Augustine would say, “You have created us for Yourself, O God, and our hearts are restless until they rest in You.” St. Teresa of the Avilla would echo the same truth when she simply said, “God alone suffices.” But, we were also born into the real human body within a complex and concrete world. As we journey toward God, we cannot totally separate our soul from the various mundane concerns. Even the monks and nuns living in monasteries will still work hard to fulfill their daily and basic needs.
Kita diciptakan menurut citra Allah, dan dengan demikian, kebahagiaan sejati kita hanya pada Allah. Seperti yang St. Agustinus katakan, “Engkau menciptakan kami untuk untuk diri-Mu, ya Allah, dan hati kami gelisah sampai mereka menemukan-Mu.” St. Teresa dari Avilla mengemakan kebenaran yang sama ketika ia mengatakan, “Allah mencukupi.” Tapi, kita juga lahir sebagai manusia yang memiliki tubuh dan ke dalam dunia yang kompleks. Saat kita berziarah menuju Allah, kita tidak bisa benar-benar memisahkan jiwa kita dari berbagai urusan duniawi. Bahkan para Rahim yang tinggal di pertapaan tetap bekerja keras untuk memenuhi kebutuhan sehari-hari dan dasar mereka.