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Eating God

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The Solemnity of the Body and Blood of Christ [June 23, 2019] Luke 9:11-17

benedict n first communicantToday the Church is celebrating the solemnity of the Body and Blood of Jesus Christ. In many countries like Indonesia, today is the best time for the children who are already prepared to receive their first Holy Communion. I still recall the day I partook of the sacred host and the holy wine. Many of us were around 10 years old, old enough to recognize the presence of Christ in the Eucharist and we were dressed in white. I was wearing long-sleeved white shirt with a tie and black pants. When the priest dipped the white bread into the chalice of wine and said, “the body and blood of Christ”, I said “Amen.” It was my first time to savor the sweetness of wine, and of course, alcoholic beverage!

At that moment, I just knew the reception of sacred host is necessary to complete the Eucharist, and I was aware I was receiving a blessing, but I never truly comprehend the profound meaning of the great mystery. For me, it was just enough that I attend the mass and consume the consecrated host. It has become a routine and tradition, from Sunday to Sunday, to from month to month, from year to year. Till we become parents and we also bring our children for their first communion. And when somebody asks us, “why do you bring your children to the first communion?”, our answer may be like, “Well, we want our kids to be like us. It is just a family tradition.” The answer is simple, but too simple that it draws more questions: why bread and wine? Why Body and Blood of Jesus? Why does it have to be eaten?

We often forget to realize that this sacred host and wine are the entire Jesus Christ Himself, with all humanity and divinity. Thus, God offers Himself to be eaten. Why eating God? The answers lie on the pages of our Old Testament. Firstly, we recall that our first parents fell because of the act of eating. Now, in the Eucharist, God uses the same act of eating to restore men and women into grace. Secondly, in the middle of the garden of Eden, there were two trees, the forbidden tree, the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, and the tree of life [Gen 2:9]. Unfortunately, our first parents chose to eat the fruits from the forbidden tree. Thus, to restore humanity to grace, now God offers us the fruits from the tree of life, the tree of the cross of Christ. Thirdly, we remember the first Passover was about the story of how God liberated Hebrew people from the slavery of Egypt. The Passover began with the slaughter of the lamb, and its blood was sprinkled on the doors of the Israelite house so that their firstborns would be saved from death. Yet, the slaughter and the sprinkling of blood were not the summit of Passover. The Hebrew people had to consume the lamb as to complete their first Passover [Exo 12:8]. Now, Jesus the Lamb of God, has been sacrificed on the cross, yet it is not the end. Like the Hebrew Passover, we need to consume the Lamb of God to complete our New Passover, the Eucharist.

There are so much themes and aspects we may ponder on the Eucharist, and particularly today, the Church reminds us that the Eucharist, especially the reception of the Holy Communion is not just our Sunday routine, a family tradition. It is of the essential plan of God for our salvation, so that we may have heaven, our Communion with God, the Holy Trinity.

Deacon Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

Image of the Trinity

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Trinity Sunday [John 16:12-15] June 16, 2019

sign of the crossThe distinctive mark of being Christian is the Holy Trinity. We share the claim of monotheism [only one God] with other prominent religions, yet our belief in one God in three divine persons enables us to stand unique among others. Doubtless, our God is one, yet the same undoubtedly, there are three persons in this one God. The Father is different from the Son and the Holy Spirit. The Son is also unique. And, the Holy Spirit maintains His personal identity. Yet, they remain always one! How is this possible?!

Relax! The greatest minds in the Church, like St. Augustine, St. Thomas Aquinas, and Benedict XVI, have tried to dive into the mystery, and yet they just scratched the surface of this highest Truth. This is the core of our faith, yet it is the most puzzling if not intriguing teaching of the Church. However, if this is the unfathomable mystery, why should we continue to ponder, live, and celebrate it? The answer lays on the faith God has planted in us.

Often, we think Trinity as far distant reality, but we forget that our daily lives as Christian are living within the Trinity. We were baptized, we were baptized in the name of the Father, of the Son and of the Holy Spirit. When we begin our prayer, we commence with the sign of the cross. This holy sign does not only point the victorious cross of Jesus but fundamentally to the Holy Name of Trinity. After we make the sign of the cross to open the Holy Mass, the priest will greet the people by saying, “The grace of the Lord Jesus Christ and the love of God and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit be with all of you.” This is the Trinitarian formula that comes St. Paul himself (see 2 Cor. 13:13). At the Eucharistic prayer, the core prayer of the Holy Mass, the priest in the name of the Church, asks the Father to send His Holy Spirit that He may transform the bread and wine to be the body and blood of Jesus Christ. At the heart of Eucharist, the source and summit of Christian worship, is the Holy Trinity. What I mention is just the tip of the iceberg on how the Trinity permeates our worship and prayer.

The real challenge is to live and celebrate the Trinity in our daily life. Our rule of prayer should be our rule of life, as well. “Lex orandi, Lex vivendi”. Otherwise, we will fall into the trap of double-life mentality. We become Christian only on Sunday, but we turn to be people who never know God on weekdays. A hypocrite!

To live in the Trinity means to manifest to our daily lives that we are the image of God, the image of Trinity.  If the Trinity is the God of justice, do we act justly to our ourselves, our neighbors and our earth? If the Trinity is the God of mercy, are we merciful and perform the traditional seven corporeal works of mercy [feed the hungry, give drink to the thirsty, clothe the naked, shelter the homeless, visit the sick, visit those imprisoned, and bury the dead]? If Trinity is the God who is love, do we love even the worst people in our lives and forgive our enemies? If Trinity is the God of Truth, are we eager to search for the truth around us or we uncritically believe in fake news?

We are people who are living in the name of the Father, of the Son and the Holy Spirit, and we are confidently looking forward to the day we are united to this Triune God.

Deacon Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

The Pentecost and The New Law

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Pentecost Sunday [June 9, 2019] John 20:19-23

pray overToday we are celebrating the great feast of Pentecost, where the Holy Spirit, the third divine person of the Holy Spirit, comes in the form of a tongue of fire and fills the hearts of the disciples. Why do we call this day as Pentecost? Why does the Holy Spirit just come 50 days after Jesus rose from the dead?

The simplistic answer will be: “It is the Holy Spirit’s business. It is up to Him!” Yet, our faith is not merely blind and stupid obedience, but a faith that seeks understanding. Our quest for an answer brings us back to the Old Testament. In the Jewish tradition and history, the feast of Pentecost or also known as the feast of Weeks is the day that they remember and celebrate the giving of the Law in Sinai. Fifty days after the Sabbath day of Passover, the Jewish people come together and celebrate another festival, the feast of the harvest. The big day is also called the feast of the Weeks because the Israelites wait for seven weeks. If seven is the number of covenants in the Bible, then seven weeks represents seven days times seven days, the fullness of covenant. In the Book of Exodus, we are going to discover that the day after seven weeks from the exodus from Egypt, God appeared in Mount Sinai, strike a covenant with Israel and gave them the Law to govern His people. If the Passover commemorates their liberation, the feast of the Weeks points to the day God gave His Law to Moses and Israel at Sinai. Then, if fifty days after the exodus from Egypt, the Israelites received the Mosaic Law, the disciples of Jesus, fifty days from the day of resurrection welcome the Holy Spirit, the new Law of Christ written in our hearts and souls.

To grasp the Pentecost, we need to comprehend the formative aspect of the Law. When God offered a covenant with Israelites, He expected them to behave like His people and not following the examples of other neighboring nations. To facilitate this, God gave Israel a set of Law to obey. The Law is to form Israelites as the people of God. With this in mind, we can now see the fundamental importance of the Pentecost for Jesus’ disciples. The Holy Spirit descends upon and dwells in the disciples as the New Law, and as the Old Law is to shape the old Israelites, so the New Law is to build the New Israel, the Church. That is why Pentecost is also considered the day that the Church was born, the birthday of the Church.

To receive the Holy Spirit in our hearts is an immense privilege, yet we are also to live in the Spirit. If ancient Israel calls themselves as the people of God because they obey the Law, so we may recognize ourselves the People of God when we follow the Spirit.  However, living in the Spirit is not about speaking in tongue or to join Charismatic groups. St. Paul clearly states to live in the Spirit is opposed to the urging of the flesh. When we detach ourselves from the works of the flesh like immorality, impurity, idolatry, hatred, division, wrath and jealousy [Gal 5:19], we already walk in the Spirit, and this is even harder than to speak in tongue. The Holy Spirit has given us His seven gifts, but do we strive to be wise, understanding, pious, persevering, knowledgeable in faith, fearful to offend the Lord [see Isa 11:1]? It would be the massive loss if we are celebrating the Pentecost, and yet we live as if we never receive the Holy Spirit.

Deacon Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

The Inevitable

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Ascension of Jesus Christ [June 2, 2019] Luke24:46-53

goodbyeIf you are a fan of Marvel universe movies, you will easily remember Thanos, the primary villain with twisted moral conviction. After he swept half of the living beings in the universe with the power of the infinity stones, he went into hiding. Yet, the Avenger found him and forced him to restore the world, but he said it was no longer possible because he has destroyed the stones, because what he did was inevitable, and he said, “I am inevitable”.

Thanos’ words echo the message of Jesus in today’s Gospel that any human relation will find its end. Separation is inevitable. Yet, it is natural for us that we do not want to be separated from our loved ones in life. Every separation surely will bring pain and anguish. I still remember when I needed to enter a seminary, and I had to be separated from my mother for good. My mother cried, and I shed some tears, too, but I guess my father was happy that I am leaving!

Thus, we can imagine that when Jesus is going up to heaven, and He will be no longer with the disciples, they are grief-stricken and full of anxiety. They would ask each other, what’s next? They are going to lose their Master, their hope, their expected Messiah and King. Yet, Jesus said that He is leaving for their own good.

Yes, separation can be painful and fearful, but Jesus assures us that separation is part of life, and it is good for us.

We take an example of my mother. Had my mother refused to let me go, I would not have been a priest and served you here in this celebration. Or another example, a mother who is pregnant. We know that she loves her baby, but she must let her baby go from her womb and let the baby breathe using his own lungs. Otherwise, the baby and the mother will both die. The separation is inevitable, but properly understood, it can be something good.

Separation can also mean allowing our loved ones to face life’s adversities and pain. After I entered the seminary, my life did not get any comfortable, yet it went in the opposite direction. No more mother to wake me up, no more father to bring me to school or help in my assignment. But what does not kill you, builds you up. Often, we love so much our children, and we want to shield them from life’s trials and pain, but it may backfire. It may create a soft generation with deadly entitlement mentality: children who believe that they are entitled to the privileges of life, people who too quickly complain about life.

Jesus understands this, and He leaves disciples so that the disciples may grow and bear fruits. Jesus knows that He will stay and protect them; they will remain a group of crying men. After Jesus left, life did not get any easier for the disciples. Eleven out of twelve were martyred. Other Jesus’ followers shared the same lot. Yet, through adversaries, they grew and flourished.  True enough, after two thousand years, the Church Jesus founded, has become the biggest community in the world with more than 1/3 of the earth’s population as its members.

The separation is inevitable, but properly understood, it can be something good and even fruitful.

Deacon Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

The Requirement of Love

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Sixth Sunday of Easter [May 26, 2019] John 14:23-29

“Whoever loves me will keep my word… (Jn. 14:23)”

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The basic form of love is obedience, and the minimum of love is to obey the Law. We can say “I love you”, but do not do what we ought to do as a lover. That’s a plain lie. A man asked a priest whether it is ok to say “I love you” during the Lenten season, especially during the days of fasting and abstinence. The priest immediately replied that it was a violation of God’s Law. The answer shocked the young man, and he asked why. The priest answered, “It is a violation because surely you tell a lie to your girlfriend!”

When we say that we love someone, but we fail to do what is required, we just hurt ourselves and the persons we love. When a child loves his mother, he will follow the instructions coming from his mother even though he does not understand why. Yet, sometimes, a child gets stubborn and refuses his mother’s plea to stop playing outside because it is time for study. This hurts the mother and father who have worked hard to pay the education and long for a better future for their son. In the long run, it also hurts the child and his future.

The same with our love for God, we need to do at least the basic, to observe His Law. From the Old Testament, we have ten commandments. We cannot say that we love the Lord, but we put our faith also in other “gods and idols”. We profess only one and true God, but we also believe in Horoscope, Feng Shui, and superstitions. We go to the Church every Sunday, but in our houses, we collect all kind of statues of animals for charm and luck. We believe in God who is just, but we steal the money or things from the government or the companies.

In the New Testament, we have the New Commandment: love one another as Jesus has loved us. Unfortunately, what we say is different from what we do. We attend the prayer meeting and shout to the top of our voices that we love Jesus, but we still are not able to forgive our enemies and still wish that they be dead. We pray the rosary regularly, but we do not even care for our ageing mothers at home. We say that we condemn the killing of the babies in other countries, but we get easily angry and make our wives as punching bags.

When we say that we love the Lord, but we do not keep His commandment, it hurts God’s heart. Perhaps, it is more hurtful than people who never say love at all to God. We can learn from our brothers and sisters who lived when the Church was still very young. Living in a hostile Roman Empire, they acknowledged that they were Christians means capital punishment. They were a good and a law-abiding citizen of Rome, except for one thing: they refused to worship Caesar. The Roman government believed that the unifying factor of the vast and diverse empire was the cult of the emperor as the embodiment of the Roman spirit. Any Roman citizen was required to offer incense and proclaimed, “Hail, Caesar is Lord.” Then, they may worship their other gods. Christians refused to do this because they loved Jesus dearly as their God, and as proof of their love, they were ready to offer their own lives.

It is the same with us. God loves us immensely that every time we do not observe His Law, we hurt God and make Him jealous. If we cannot do the essential requirement of love, our words are empty and our love cheap.

Deacon Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

New Commandment: Agape

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5th Sunday of Easter [May 19, 2019] John 13:31-33a, 34-35

childrenAt the Last Supper, after Jesus washed the feet of the disciples, He gives them a new commandment: “love one another as I have loved you”. If there is one single, most beautiful line in the Gospel of John or even in the entire Bible, this would be one of the strongest candidates. However, why does Jesus give us a new commandment?

To understand what Jesus does in the Last Supper, we need to go back to the Old Testament, particularly when the Lord God gave His commandments. After the Lord God delivered Israel from the slavery of Egypt, He made a covenant with them through the mediation of Moses. They shall be God’s people and the Lord shall be their God. This was the fundamental step in the life of Israel because God formed them as the People of God. This was an unprecedented privilege and grace, but with great privilege comes the great responsibility. God wanted them to live as the People of God and not as the other nations that surrounded them. Thus, the Lord gave them the Law that would separate them from other peoples who worshiped false gods, and the most fundamental among these laws are the Ten Commandments. If they stubbornly failed to observe the Law and lived as if like the Gentiles, they would be cut off from the People of God.

At the Last Supper, Jesus does the same as His Father in the desert. He forms His disciples, His family, His Church by giving them a New Law, the Law of Love. Only when the disciples keep the New Law, they will be different from the rest of nations, and they may call themselves as the followers of Jesus. At first, we may perceive that Jesus’ new law is easier done than the Ten Commandment. Yet, when we go deeper to the meaning of love understood by Jesus, it is actually the opposite. Jesus’ Law is much more difficult and tougher to do. Why?

In Greek of the New Testament, there are several words for love. “Eros” is the love between husband and wife. “Philia” is love among friends. None of these two Jesus used to describe His love. It is “agape”. While eros and philia are love based on emotion, agape is love rooted in free will. It is the love of action. That is why Jesus is able to teach us to love our enemies. Jesus does not say we should like our enemies because it is naturally impossible, but we can still do good to our enemies despite the hatred and anger.

But, this agape is not just any agape, it is agape of Jesus. For Him, there is no greater love than one who lays down his life for his friends. Agape of Jesus is sacrificial. It is Jesus’ cross as well as His glory. Only when we love to the point of sacrifice, we may say that we have kept Jesus’ commandment.

Muelmar “Toto” Magallanes was a young Filipino who worked as a construction worker. In 2009, monstrous tropical storm Ondoy battered Metro Manila and caused an instant flood in many areas. When his area was flooded, Toto first brought to safety his family. Yet, he did not stop there. He decided to rescue others who were still trapped by the mighty water. Braving the strong current, he saved more than 30 people. He was already exhausted when he realized a mother and her baby were still in danger. He made his last rescue attempt and brought the mother and her baby to the higher ground. Yet, losing his strength, he was swept by the current. He was lifeless the following day. “He gave his life for my baby,” Menchie Penalosa, the child’s mother, told Agence France-Presse. “I will never forget his sacrifice.”

This is the new commandment of Jesus and only by keeping His Commandment, we can become His authentic disciples.

Deacon Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

Hearing His Voice

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Fourth Sunday of Easter [May 12, 2019] Jn 10:27-30

“My sheep hear my voice; I know them, and they follow me. (Jn. 10:27)”

jesus shepherdFew of us have a direct encounter with a sheep, let alone shepherding sheep. When Jesus says, “My sheep hear my voice.” I thought it was a kind exaggeration. After all the sheep is not that intelligent compared to the Golden Retriever or Labrador who would listen to their owners. However, one time, I watched a video on YouTube about a group of tourists who visited the vast hill in the countryside of Judea where the flock was grazing. They were asked to call the attention of the sheep. One by one, the tourists shouted to the top of their lungs, but they got not even the slightest response. Yet, when the true shepherd came forward and called them out, all the scattered sheep immediately rushed toward the shepherd! It was an eye-opener. Jesus was right. The sheep literally hear the voice of His shepherd.

The sheep in Judea are raised both for wool and for sacrifice. Especially those intended for wool production, the shepherd shall live together with his flock for years. No wonder if he knows well each sheep, its characters, and even its unique physical features. He will call them by name like ‘small-feet’ or ‘large-ears.’

Modern men and women, especially the Millennials, are heavily visual creatures. Thanks to smartphones, TV, and computers, our span of attention becomes shorter and shorter. One scientist even says that our span of attention is one second shorter than of the goldfish! The teachers or speakers must use all the visual aids to catch the attention of young listeners. PowerPoint presentation is a minimum requirement nowadays, and the teachers need to move all their body’s parts, to crack a joke, to sing, to dance, even to summersault! Simply listening to a plain talk is tedious, and to read a bare and long text like this reflection is boring. This is also one of the reasons why young people are leaving the Church because they experience the Church, especially her preachers, as boring and dry. After five minutes listening to the preacher, we begin to be restless, checking our watch, scratching our heads, and dozing off!

However, hearing remains fundamental because hearing is the key to following Jesus. We call ourselves, Christians, the follower of Christ, and how can we follow Christ if we do not recognize His voice? While the sense of sight attracts us, sense of hearing remains signs of intimacy and love. Like a sheep that identifies the shepherd’s voice because the shepherd takes care of it, so we recognize the voice of someone we love. I have been hearing the voice of my mother since I was inside her womb, and even when I close my eyes, I can still acknowledge her voice. I can even identify whether she is happy, sad, or angry when she calls my name.

One time, a young man asked me, “Brother, how do we know God’s will?” I replied, “Do you hear His voice?” He immediately said, “I pray, but I never heard a voice.” I said in reply, “Ah, how are you going to hear His voice if you talk all the time? And how are you going to know His voice, if you seldom give your time with Him?” To follow Jesus means that we are able to hear Jesus, and to recognize His voice presupposes we have a loving and strong relationship with Him

Deacon Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

Fish and Bread

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Third Sunday of Easter [May 5, 2019] John 21:1-19

ichthus 2If we observe the Gospel readings of the past days and Sundays, we will notice that most of them are speaking about the risen Christ’s appearances to His disciples. One unnoticeable yet interesting feature in these stories is that of the presence of food.

The two disciples who walk to Emmaus, invite Jesus to have a dinner. Jesus takes the bread, says the blessing, breaks it, and gives it, and He disappears. The two disciples come to their senses, and realize He is Jesus [Luk 24:30]. When Jesus appears to the Eleven and other disciples, they are terrified. To dispel their doubt on His resurrection, Jesus presents His body and eats the fish given to Him [Luk 24:42]. And in today’s Gospel, Jesus invites His seven disciples to a breakfast at the shore of the Lake of Tiberias. After another miraculous catch, Jesus prepares bread and fish for the disciples who are no longer baffled by the appearance of their Master [John 21:13].

We may ask, “Why bread and fish?” These are simple food that are often available at Jewish household. Yet, looking deeper, bread and fish possess a profound meaning. Bread and fish are earliest symbol of Christ and Christians. Bread, especially the breaking of the bread, is the technical biblical name for the Eucharist. In the Acts of Apostles, the first Christians gather around the apostles for the teaching and breaking of the bread [Acts 2:42]. On a Sunday, Paul leads the community of Troas in worship as he preaches and breaks bread [Acts 20:7]. Fish, in Greek, is “Ichthus” and it stands for “Iesous Christos Theos Hyios Soter”, meaning Jesus Christ God Son [and] Savior. The symbol of fish was scattered inside catacombs of Rome as a sign of Christian gathering in time of persecution.

The question lingers: why does the risen Lord ask for food and invites the disciples to eat? Firstly, eating food is one of the most basic activities of human being. It points to our biological functions that sustains our bodily life and growth. The spiritless body neither consumes food, nor the bodiless spirit enjoys meals. Jesus shows His disciples that his resurrection is not a matter of spiritual enlightenment, but truly a bodily reality. His disciples neither see a spirit floating in the air, nor simply believe that their Teacher is alive in their hearts. The tomb is empty because Jesus, including His body, has risen.

Secondly, eating together does not only satisfy our tummy, but it also brings people closer together. While we are enjoying food, we cannot but share our thoughts and hearts to each other. Eating together builds not only the body, but also the dialogue and community. One of my favorite activities in the convent is the meal time, not because I am fond of eating, but we share a lot of stories and opinions. We practically speak about anything under the sun, from the latest movie, Avenger Endgame, the current political issues, to theological discussion on St. Thomas Aquinas. We also tell our joys, concerns and worries in our ministry and our future as a community. Simple food, yet great bonding.

Upon the simple reality of eating together, Jesus builds His community. In a shared meal, He retells His stories of painful passion and shameful death, and unearths its profound meanings especially as the fulfillment of the Scriptures. The events of his death used to be absurdity and loss of hope, but in the dining table, the risen Lord restores the faith, hope and love that go dim.

Jesus leaves us the Eucharist, the breaking of the bread, the sacred meal. Like the first disciples, it is here that we discover the risen Lord who shares His body as a spiritual food, and His Word as the meaning of our life. In the Eucharist, we are assured that the worst of this world does not have the last say, and the battle against absurdity has already been won.

Deacon Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

Fear and Forgiveness

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Second Sunday of Easter/ Divine Mercy Sunday [April 28, 2019] John 20:19-31

risen christ 2Today is the Divine Mercy Sunday. From the Gospel, Jesus institutes the sacrament of reconciliation as He bestows His Holy Spirit upon the Disciples. He grants them the divine authority to forgive (and not to forgive) sins and charges them to be the agents of Mercy. While it is true that only priests can minister the sacrament of confession, every disciple of Christ is called to be an agent of Mercy and forgiveness. Yet, how we are going to be the bearers of Mercy and Forgiveness? I think we need to understand first the dynamic of fear and peace.

Fear is one of the human most basic emotions. It makes us flee from impending danger and normally, it is good and necessary for our survival. Yet, what is unique with us humans is that the object of fear is not only physical real danger like an earthquake, fire, or venomous animals, but it extends to moral judgment. When we commit a mistake, we are afraid of the judgment as well as the consequences. Quite often too, fearful of the judgment and condemnation, we are run away and hide. In fact, the story of fear is a primordial story. We recall our first parents, Adam and Eve. After they violated the Law of God, they realized that they have terribly sinned against the Lord, and afraid of God’s judgment, they hid.

After the passion and death of Jesus we find out that Jesus’ disciples themselves are afraid and hiding. The disciples lock themselves inside the room because they are afraid. However, the real fear is not from the Jewish authority or the Roman troops, but from Jesus’ judgment. We remember that Judas handed over Jesus to the Jewish authority, Peter, the leader, denied Jesus three times, and most of the disciples were running away. Even before the crucial moments of Jesus, they have deserted their Master and Messiah. In a court martial, a soldier who deserts his army, especially during the pick of the battle, is considered a traitor not only to the army, but to the entire nation, and he deserves no less than capital punishment. The disciples are hiding because of fear that Jesus will bring His severe judgment, and get back on them. The disciples are afraid that Jesus may come anytime, condemn them, and throw a fireball on them.

Indeed, Jesus comes to them, but he brings not condemnation but the gift of peace, “Shalom”. This peace only ensues from forgiveness. This peace, however, is not the absence of judgment, but rather it presupposes one. Unless the disciples recognize and own up their terrible mistakes, they will not appreciate Jesus’ forgiveness and mercy. The peace will be just a mirage, and fear still reigns.

To become an agent of Mercy, we first dare to pronounce judgment. If we pretend that the sin never happens, and keep telling ourselves that everything is just fine, we deceive ourselves and never become sincerely peaceful. Indeed, it is difficult, but as we cannot heal unless there is prognosis, we cannot truly forgive unless there is judgment.

Just last week, several suicide bombers blew themselves up at several churches in Sri Lanka and killed hundreds of Christians. A religious sister, who lost several of her community members in the explosion, wrote an open letter to the perpetrators. She judged that what they did was an act of terrorism, pure evil. Yet, she reminds them that Christians will not be cowed and afraid because we know how to forgive. She said that the Catholic Church remains an open-door Church because she is not afraid to welcome everyone including those who tried to destroy her.

There is no peace without forgiveness, and there is no forgiveness and mercy without true judgment.

Deacon Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

Mary Magdalene and Resurrection

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Easter Sunday [April 19, 2019] John 20:1-9

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Mary Magdalene is a female disciple that loves her Teacher deeply, and being a woman, there is something that she teaches us. Luke describes her in his Gospel as a woman “from whom seven demons have come out” [see Luk 8:2]. It must be a terrible experience to be tormented by seven demons, and when Jesus heals her, she expresses her deep gratitude by following Jesus. As one of Jesus’ disciples, she is proven to be the most faithful to her Teacher. When many followers of Jesus are running away to save their lives, and even Peter, the leading figure in the group, denies Jesus, Mary follows Jesus in His way of the Cross to the end. She received the insult Jesus receives, she bears the humiliation Jesus bears, she carries the cross Jesus carries. In fact, she is standing beside the cross together with the mother of Jesus and John the beloved.

However, Mary’s love is even bigger than death. She is the first person who visits the tomb early in the morning. We recall that after Jesus died on the cross, his body was hastily brought to the tomb by Nicodemus and Joseph Arimathea because the Sabbath was drawing near. During Sabbath, Jews are not allowed to bury the dead. Mary knows that Jesus’ body was not taken care of properly, and she wants to make sure that Jesus deserves the proper burial. She comes to the tomb to express her love for the last time for the Teacher by anointing the body of Jesus. Yet, she only sees the empty tomb. Fear seizes her. She may think that some bad guys stole, inflicted further damages and desecrated the body. Instinctively, she runs towards the men of authority after Jesus Himself, Peter and John.

After checking the tomb, Peter fails to understand, and he goes back to the house. She also does not understand and weeps for the loss of her love, but unlike Peter, Mary stays at the tomb. In utter confusion and meaninglessness, Mary does not abandon Jesus. Indeed, the Savior does not disappoint and gives Mary Magdalene a singular privilege to witness the resurrected Jesus. Her great love and fidelity lead her to the joy of Resurrection. She becomes the first preacher of Resurrection.

In the Gospel, often female disciples are depicted as a model of love and perseverance. God created man and woman as equal in dignity, but they differ in characters. Indeed, men like Peter, are the figures of authority, but women excel in what often is lacking in male disciples. I have visited many places in Indonesia and the Philippines, and I give talks and reflections, but one thing in common from these places, is that women often outnumber the men. I am newly assigned in Redemptor Mundi Parish, Surabaya, Indonesia, and a simple gaze will prove that more women are attending our daily morning masses.

Mary Magdalene, a woman disciple, shows to us that it is possible to love and to be faithful when things got tough and rough, when life throws us its trash, and when confusion and meaningless seem to reign. Mary is those women who unceasingly pray for the priests despite so many failures they have made Mary are those mothers who make daily sacrifices for their children despite being unappreciated. Mary is those religious sisters who serve the poor committedly despite many setbacks and trails. We must thank many Mary Magdalene around us. They show us that there love truly conquers death and that there is a resurrection in even the senseless empty tomb.

Happy Easter!

Deacon Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP