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Pray like Jesus

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7th Sunday of Easter

May 24, 2020

John 17:1-11a

man in prayer 2We are aware that prayer is a fundamental part of Jesus’ life. He prays on a regular basis, and especially when He is preparing to embrace decisive events, like Baptism on the Jordan [Luke 3:21], the election of the twelve apostles [Luke 6:12], transfiguration [Luke 9:28], and the Passion [Matt 26:36–44]. However, we seldom hear what Jesus says in His prayers. In the Synoptic Gospels [Matthew, Mark, and Luke], we are fortunate enough to hear Jesus’ compact and emotional prayer in the Garden of Gethsemane before He enters into His Passion. However, John the evangelist makes sure that we are going to discover what Jesus prays, and it is substantially longer than we ever heard before.

John devotes the entire chapter of His Gospel for this prayer [John 17:1-26]. As expected, He prays to the Father with extraordinary affection and confidence. Yet, what makes it noteworthy is that Jesus does not say only about Himself and His mission, but also prays for His disciples. Jesus is acting as the priest who is interceding on behalf of His disciples. That is why we call this section the high priest’s prayer of Jesus Christ.

From Jesus’ prayer, we unearth some powerful lessons:

Firstly, if prayer is essential in the life of Jesus, it is because Jesus understands that prayer is His line of communication to the Father. Jesus knows well that communication is the key to every flourishing relationship. Perhaps, we fail to see this truth, and that is why we feel prayer is burdensome. We are not eager to attend the mass because we simply understand it as an obligation. We relegate personal prayer to the sideline as we make other things as our priority. Sadly, we immediately blame God if our plans do not work according to our whim, or we even threaten God to grant our wishes. Thus, changing perspective about prayer is crucial and even life-transforming.

Secondly, if prayer is communication, then it should always be a dialogue. Often when we start growing in prayer, we think that we need to always say something to the Lord. I remember one seminarian asked me, “Father, what else should I say if I am running out of words in my prayers?” I told him, “Perhaps, it is time to listen to God.” The next expected question is, “How do I listen to God?” Surely there is no one-size-fits-all answer to this, but I like what St. Jerome says, “You pray: You speak to the bridegroom. You read [scriptures]: He speaks to you.” Yet, we need to remember that dialogue of words is not the end of the communication. The end is the unity of the persons in dialogue. Jesus says, “I am in my Father, and you are in me, and I am in you [John 14:20].”

Lastly, our prayer involves the third person. This is the direct consequence of Jesus’ priestly prayer. Prayer is a dialogue, but just like other dialogue, it may speak about other persons. This is when we pray to God for others. Because Jesus leaves us an example in His priestly prayer, it is all the more imperative for us to care for others through prayers. In time we cannot reach other people who need our help; prayers remain the best way to love them. Indeed the saints in heaven continue to care for us despite not able to physically appear to us through their prayers.

Prayer unites us with God in love and prayer also unites us with people we love in God.

Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

The Paraclete

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6th Sunday of Easter

May 17, 2020

John 14:15-21

holy spirit dove 4In the last supper, Jesus promised the disciples that He would send another advocate to be with them forever. Who is this other advocate?

We all know that He is the Holy Spirit, the third person of the Most Holy Trinity. Yet, how did Jesus describe Him in the Gospel of John, and why did He call the Spirit as such? Jesus named Him as the Paraclete, or in Greek, “Parakletos.” This exceptional word comes from two more basic Greek words, “para” means “at the side,” and “kaleo” means “to call.” Thus, “parakletos” can be understood as someone who is called to be at our side, especially in times of need. It is crucial to see the original setting where this word came: it was the courtroom. No wonder that the word “parakletos” may be translated into English as an advocate like a lawyer who assists us, defend us and speak on our behalf in the legal trial. Yet, as we know, a good lawyer does not only assist within the courtroom, he is there before and after the trial. He gives his advice and prepares us for the proceedings. In the end, he consoles us if we face severe judgment as well as rejoices if we emerge victoriously. No wonder in English, the word “paraclete” can be translated as an advocate, comforter, counselor, and even helper. But why did Jesus choose this image in the first place?

The reason is that Jesus knew that as the disciples preached His Gospel, they would face many trials. Peter and John faced trial before the Sanhedrin [Acts 4:5 ff]. Stephen was accused of blasphemy and stoned to death [acts 7]. And Paul was put under many judgments before he gave up his life for Jesus. In this kind of reality, Jesus did the right thing: to send the Paraclete. The Holy Spirit would be at the side of the disciples facing trials and hardship as they were preaching Jesus. Indeed, it is inconceivable for these disciples to endure and even give up their lives without the Holy Spirit that were at their side.

In our time, as disciples of Christ, we are facing a global trial caused by the virus covid19. Some of us are luckier because we just need to stay at home. Some of us are fortunate because we can enjoy the livestreaming mass, even twice a day! But for many, the pandemic means losing their livelihood and even their lives. For many, they cannot go to the church even when there was no pandemic.

We indeed need the Paraclete, but one of the gifts of the Holy Spirit is that we are also empowered to be a little paraclete to our brothers and sisters. The moment we, the Dominican community in Surabaya, was required to close the church temporarily for the public service, we immediately were eager to provide an online service to our parishioners. We are thankful that many people donate relief goods to our parish, and our parish priests assisted by lay partners work hard to channel this help to those who are in need.

Instead of complaining that we cannot go to the Church or blaming others for the situations, we should ask the Holy Spirit to empower us to become little paracletes and find ways to be advocates, comforters and at the side of our brothers and sisters in need.

Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

Jesus and His Bride in Time of Pandemic

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5th Sunday of Easter

May 10, 2020

John 14:1-12

joseph n maryWe have closed our churches for public service for weeks. We shifted to livestreaming masses, and we are learning to adjust and to give priority to our health and life, we realize our hearts remain troubled. We long to see Jesus in the Most Blessed Sacrament, we desire to receive Him in the Eucharist, we want to serve Him in the churches, and we miss the sacrament of confession. We are unsure when it is going to end and be back to normal.

We are like the disciples in the Gospel. Their hearts were troubled because Jesus was about to leave them. They were having a Passover meal, and it was supposed a festive celebration. Yet, Jesus announced to them that someone would betray Him, and He would be taken away from them. The disciples had thrown everything away and followed Jesus because they were hoping that Jesus, as the Messiah, would overthrow the Roman empire and restore the glory of Israel. They could not square with the probability of utter failure. Were they holding on false hope? Was Jesus a hoax? Were their sacrifices useless? We are like the disciples. After we give everything to follow Jesus, to serve His Church, and to work in His vineyard, we feel He is missing. Where is Jesus when we needed Him most?

Jesus knew His disciples’ hearts and assured them as He did to have in God and Jesus. Yet, what comes after this word of affirmation is that Jesus told the disciples that there are many dwelling places in His Father’s house, and He will go to prepare the places. To comfort the disciples, Jesus did not say that He would come back victorious, or He would destroy all enemies of Israel. He said that He is going to prepare a dwelling place. It is just not making much sense.

To understand this, we need to know the wedding ceremony at the time of Jesus. During this time, the wedding was done in two steps. The first one is the betrothal, and the second stage is the wedding celebration. During the betrothal, the couple has exchanged vows and have become husband and wife in the eyes of the Law, but they have not stayed together in one house. They had to wait for around one year before the final ceremony. After around year, the bride would be brought in procession to the home of the groom, and they will have a week-long celebration. Why one-year wait? The reason is practical. It gives enough time for the man to prepare for the celebration as well as build a proper place for the bride.

One particular image that the Church has in relation to Jesus is that she is the bride of Christ. If we apply this Jewish wedding rite to the Church and Jesus, we discover that betrothal has taken place, but not yet the final step. Jesus is not with His Church because He is Father’s House to prepare the dwelling place for us, His bride.

In the time of the pandemic, our hearts are sorely troubled, and with the churches are closed, we feel that our Lord is taken away from us. Yet, a difficult time can actually be a passage going to the much better dwelling place prepared by Jesus. We may not see yet the better things we will experience, yet Jesus assures us that God is in control. In this stormy life, we may see a beautiful place prepared by Jesus, our groom.

Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

Why Sheep?

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Fourth Sunday of Easter [A]

May 3, 2020

John 10:1-10

Today is the fourth Sunday of Easter and good shepherd 5traditionally it is also called as the Good Shepherd Sunday. This is for an obvious reason. The Gospel reading tells us about Jesus who introduces Himself as the gate of the sheepfold and the Good Shepherd. The other readings also point the image of God as the good shepherd, like the world-renown psalm 23, “the Lord is my shepherd.”

The gospel of John has no parables like the other three gospels, but John has something else. The gospel gives us the seven “I AM” statements.  “I am the bread of life.” (John 6:35, 41, 48, 51); “I am the light of the world.” (John 8:12); “I am the door of the sheep.” (John 10:7,9); “I am the resurrection and the life.” (John 11:25); “I am the good shepherd.” (John 10:11, 14); “I am the way, the truth, and the life.” (John 14:6); “I am the true vine.” (John 15:1, 5). These statements reveal the particular ways Jesus relates with us His disciples. If Jesus is the bread of life, we cannot live without consuming Him. If He is the light, we cannot see and find our way home.

When Jesus proclaims that He is the door of the sheep and the good shepherd, this assumes that Jesus treats us as His sheep. The question is why sheep? Why not cuter animals like Persian cats or Shih Tzu? Why not something useful like German shepherd or horse? Ok, sheep can be useful also as farm animal. Lamb and mutton are one of the finest meats, and the wool can turn to be expensive cloth. But, does Jesus consider us as sheep because our cuteness or usefulness?

Together with goats, sheep is are one of the domesticated animals. Humans have farmed sheep for the last ten thousand years. In the Palestine at the time of Jesus, sheep is a very common animal, and despite working as carpenter, it is not difficult for Jesus to observe the life of shepherd and its flocks. What makes sheep different from goat is that sheep has no built-in self-defense mechanism. Unlike the goats, they are equipped by sturdy horns and can be aggressive when attacked. Sheep are basically defenseless and thus, they depend heavily on the shepherds to protect them.

We might raise our eyebrow and reject the idea that we are helpless like the sheep. Afterall, humans are on the top of animal kingdom because our intelligence and physical prowess.  Indeed, this is true, if we only limit ourselves to biological or natural aspect of our humanity. If we consider our spiritual life, we are no better than a sheep. Without God’s protection and His angels’, we are just punching bags of the evil spirits. Without God’s laws and guidance, we do nothing but harm ourselves. More importantly, without God, we cannot be saved.

In the final analysis, borrowing the words of Bishop Robert Barron, Christianity is the religion of salvation, and not self-help. No matter good we are, we cannot reach heaven without God’s grace. Our actions are only meaningful as far as it is aided by God’s love. The image of the sheep leads us to humble and grateful realization of who we are. We are nothing without God, yet no matter spiritually weak and defenseless we are, God remains faithful to us and will lead the green pasture because He is our Good Shepherd.

Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

Road to Emmaus, Road Back to God

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3rd Sunday of Easter

April 26, 2020

Luke 24:13-35

emmaus 10The two disciples went back home to Emmaus. One of them was Cleopas, and his companion probably was his wife. Perhaps they got afraid of the Roman and Jewish authorities who might go after them after they killed Jesus, the leader. Or maybe, they just got their hope and expectation shattered when Jesus, their expected Messiah, was crucified.

Cleopas and his wife were doing what we usually do in times of sadness and troubles. They told stories and tried to make sense of what had happened. Yet, the thing did not go right. Their dialogue did not make them better. Instead, they became so depressed, and they even failed to recognize Jesus, who was very close. Indeed, we need someone to share our stories, but when this person is not prepared, despite his goodwill, our stories can go from bad to worse. We need to remember that the first dialogue in the Bible took place in the garden of Eden between Eve and the serpent.

Fortunately, Jesus intervened at the right moment. Jesus brought in the missing piece. Jesus offered the word of God. The couple was so blessed because they experienced the first-ever Bible study, and it was Jesus Himself who guided them. Yet, Jesus made it clear that they knew their scriptures, but they were lack of faith. When we read the Bible without faith, it is nothing more than a lovely and inspiring novel or an ancient and mysterious text. Only with faith, we encounter God who is telling His stories. No wonder Jesus said to them that the scriptures are about Him because Jesus is the same God who was present in the creation, who led the Hebrew peoples in their exodus, and who sent prophets to guide the Israelites in the promised land.

Cleopas and his wife remind us of the first couple who also failed to have faith in God, Adam, and Eve. After the first dialogue with Satan that led them to doom, they deserved nothing but death. Yet, God did not allow death to overcome them immediately, but instead He made them leather cloth as a sign of His protection, as well as the sign of the first blood sacrifice. When they left the beautiful garden as a consequence of their choice, it was also the last time we heard about what happened inside the garden. Why? God was no longer in the garden. He was following Adam and Eve. God did not wish they wondered even farther but guided them back to paradise. As God journeyed with Adam and Eve, he also walked with Cleopas and his wife, as they make their way to the new Eden. In the end of their journey, they recognized Jesus when He took bread, blessed, broke and shared it. These were the eucharistic gestures. They entered the new Paradise, the celebration of the Eucharist.

Our stories in life, even in the most destressing moment like now, make sense when God enters into the pictures with His stories. The journey to Emmaus sheds a brighter light on the purpose of the Holy Mass. In the Mass, we always begin with the reading of the scriptures because we are invited to see our little stories in God’s greatest stories. When we find the meaning of our lives in God, that is the time we discover Jesus alive and fresh in the breaking of the bread.

Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

Divine Mercy

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Second Sunday of Easter [A]

April 19, 2020

John 20:19-31

ViaDolorosa0181The second Sunday of Easter is also known as the Divine Mercy Sunday. The liturgical celebration of the Divine Mercy Sunday is declared in the year 2000 by Pope St. John Paul II who had a strong devotion to the Divine Mercy revealed to St. Faustina. Though the feast itself is something recent, the truth of divine mercy is fundamental in the Bible and Sacred Tradition. If there is one prevailing character of God, it is not other than mercy. In the Old Testament, there are at least two Hebrew words that can be translated as mercy. One is rāḥam and the other is ḥeṣedh.

The word Raham is closely related to a woman’s womb. It is the feeling and action that flow from the womb, the source and nurturer of new life. Mercy comes from the realization that we belong to the same womb, that we are siblings. Thus, when one of our brothers is suffering or struggling with a difficulty, we easily empathize with him and are moved to alleviate his hardship. Yet, mercy can be also understood as a maternal impulse towards someone who has come from her womb. It is the genuine yearning that moves a mother to do anything for her children. Mercy in this sense, I believe, is more proper to God. He cannot but be merciful and embrace our sufferings and even weakness because we are coming from God’s spiritual womb. No wonder, the Church dare asserts that we are God’s children.

The word “Hesedh” is also a powerful word and it may mean a steadfast love or a relentless fidelity to a covenant. Our God is a person who is unthinkably bold to tie Himself to a covenant with weak humans like Adam and his descendants. Because of this, the Bible is nothing but a story of a faithful God who gives Himself to unfaithful men and women. From Adam who failed to his duty to guard the garden, down to Peter who denied Jesus three times, humanity is terribly disloyal, but God remains faithful and offers His forgiveness to rebuild the shattered relationship.

The choice of the Second Sunday of Easter to be the Divine Mercy is an excellent decision because the Gospel speaks powerfully how God’s mercy operates. The risen Jesus appeared to the disciples and gave them the authority to forgive sins. This is the story of the institution of the sacrament of reconciliation. Forgiveness is the first and foremost manifestation of mercy. Though the authority to forgive belongs properly to God, the risen Christ has willed that this authority is shared with His apostles. Since the apostles are the first bishops, the same power is handed down to their successors. And the bishops shared this divine power and responsibility to their co-workers, the priests.

The Gospel begins with the disciples who were afraid. They were afraid for many reasons, but one of the strongest reasons was that they were afraid of Jesus. They have abandoned and been unfaithful to Him, and they heard that Jesus has risen. They thought that it was the time of judgment, time to get even. Yet, Jesus appeared and His first word is not a word of anger or judgment, but “peace” or “shalom”. The disciples should no longer be afraid and be at peace because despite their unfaithfulness because they have been forgiven.

The Easter season begins with the assurance that God is merciful and offering us the forgiveness we do not deserve. And this season invites us to forgive more because we are forgiven, to become the apostles of peace because we have received peace from Jesus.

Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

Empty Tomb

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Easter Sunday

April 12, 2020

John 20:1-9

ViaDolorosa0203Today is the day of resurrection. Today is the day Jesus has conquered sin and death. Today is the day of our victory. No wonder among the liturgical celebration of the Church, Easter is the grandest, the longest and the most spectacular. It is the time that the churches are flooded with the faithful. It is the time that parishioners got involved in many activities, practices, and services. It is the time when families gather and celebrate. It is the time the priests receive more blessings!

However, something strange this year. Our Easter celebration is silent and simple. It is like an empty tomb, quiet and dark. And like the empty tomb, our churches are also empty, the pews are without people, and our buildings are darker. This Easter, we do not hold burning candles in our hands. This Easter, we do not sing together the Exultet. This Easter, we still do not receive the holy communion.

We may be like Mary Magdalene or Peter who discovered the empty tomb. Mary Magdalene was confused and at a loss when she saw the empty tomb. She was weeping before the tomb because she thought the body of Jesus has been stolen. She loved Jesus so much, but she had to see His Lord tortured, crucified and buried. It was a painful and crushing experience to see someone she loved dying like an animal. As if not enough with all the pain, this time, the body was missing. Peter did not fare better. After he had told his Master that he would give his life for Him, less than a few hours, he denied Jesus, not once, not twice, but thrice. He realized that he was a coward, and this brought pain and terrible humiliation. To make things worse, he discovered the tomb empty and he failed to understand.

This year is different because God has invited us to go deeper into the tomb. In previous years, we may be dazzled by the shining angel. We focus ourselves on various preparations, on the beautiful songs, on the floral decorations, on a joyous atmosphere, or perhaps on the priests! But this year, God calls our attention to the empty tomb, to endure the silence, to bear the darkness, and to reflect deeper on how Jesus resurrected.

Jesus did not put a spectacular show on how He conquered death. Jesus did not take any selfies when He returned from the dead! Rather, Jesus rose in the secret of the cave. Jesus won over death in the silence of the tomb. Jesus saved us in the hidden and mysterious way. Yet, this is the resurrection, and this is the most beautiful moment in human history.

This year Easter gives us a powerful lesson. God has risen even in the empty tombs of our lives. God is alive even we are far from the church we love and serve. God is alive even when we feel the most powerless inside our homes. God is alive even when we are struggling with many difficulties caused by this pandemic.

Perhaps, it is the time we reflect more on how God works gently in our lives. Perhaps, it is the time to rethink our priorities in life and to place God in the center. Perhaps, it is the time to appreciate the people who love, to reconcile with people who are close to us.

 

Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

 

 

Olive

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Good Friday

April 10, 2020

John 18 – 19

jesus prays 2If there is one thing that unites people from different nations, languages, and religions, that is the experience of suffering. With the ultra-fast spreading coronavirus, covid-19, people with different backgrounds, young and old, rich or poor, and noblemen or commoners, and laypeople or clergy fall in their knees and tremble. Indeed, this microscopic virus has shattered countless lives. People are dying, hospitals are overwhelmed, cities are isolated, families are separated, workers are jobless, governments are at loss, and churches are empty. Pope Francis notes that “we are just one the same boat”, and this boat is sinking. Suffering forces us to admit our human frailty and all that we are proud of, are a mere breath.

I heard more and more questions from some of my friends, “When is it going to end? We miss to do our ordinary routine, when can we go back to the Church? Are we going to survive? Are we going to die? Where is God in this most troubling time?” As a priest working in a parish, it is our duty to strengthen the people of God in this moment of trials, yet I cannot simply offer a consoling yet untrue words. I cannot simply say, “it is going to end soon” though, at the back of their minds, they know that it is not. It is a plain lie when I tell people, “It is fine, don’t worry.” While I am myself struggling with pain and disappointment. This is my first year as a priest, yet, I find myself exiled from the people of I serve. The most painful reality is that I cannot celebrate the Holy Week, the most sacred time with the people I love and care for.

At this moment of confusion, pain, and suffering, I would like to invite all of you to see the cross, and yet before the cross, let us be with Jesus on His agony in the garden. Jesus together with His three disciples, went to the mount of Olivet, and to the part of this mount, the garden called Gethsemane. The name Gethsemane means “olive press” and some of the olive oil needed by the city of Jerusalem came from this place. Olive itself is a basic and yet precious oil. It is used for daily household needs like cooking, seasoning, and burning the lamp. Since it has a therapeutic effect, the oil serves as a medicine. It is also used for sacred purposes. Olive oil is offered as part of daily sacrifice in the Temple [Num 28:5]. And the priests like Aaron and kings like David were anointed with olive oil. With a wide range of utilities, from household to sacred use, no wonder that in ancient Jewish traditions, the olive tree was considered as the tree of life in the middle of the garden of Eden.

However, to produce the oil, the fruits have to be two-step crushing process. Firstly, the fruits shall be ground by a huge millstone. Secondly, the olive pulp shall be squeezed to extract the oil. The fruits of the tree of life have to be crushed to produce life itself. And Jesus understood that He is the new tree of life, and He has to be crushed first to yield the true life.

Jesus is facing the horrifying time in His life and He has all the options to deal with it. Jesus could have run, He could have summoned the legions of angels to defend Him, or He could simply place someone else to be crucified. Yet, Jesus chooses to embrace His cross and death because He knows this is the most fruitful way. Only through suffering and death, He can love us to the end, and we may have life abundantly.

In the face of our suffering, we are called like Jesus to embrace it, and even be crushed by it, so that true life may flow. It is true that in my first year as a priest, God has a different plan for me, and I cannot celebrate the Holy Week with the people I serve, but He gives me even a precious gift to participate in His suffering and death more fully.

Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

Hosanna

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Palm Sunday of the Lord’s Passion

April 5, 2020

Matthew 21:1-11 and Matthew 26:14—27:66

palm at homeToday, we are celebrating the Palm Sunday of the Lord’s Passion. In many countries, today is a big celebration where people excitedly throng the Church. I remember when I was still studying in the Philippines, the faithful would pack almost all the 11 masses in our Church, Santo Domingo Church. It was a festive celebration as many people were carrying palm branches of a coconut tree.

However, something bizarre takes place this year. The churches in many countries are temporarily closed, the faithful are asked to avoid gathering, including the Holy Eucharist, and people are confused about what to do with the Celebration of the Holy Week. A parishioner once painfully asked me, “Father, since the Church is closed, what shall I do with the palm branches I have?” Surely, there is always a pastoral solution to any problem that the faithful have. Yet, the real issue is not so much about how to clear up the confusion, but how to deal with the deep pain of losing what makes us Catholics. No palm in our hands, no kissing of the crucifix, and no Body of Christ.

Reflecting on our Gospels’ today, we are somehow like the people of Jerusalem who welcomed Jesus and shouted, “Hosanna!” The Hebrew word “Hosanna” literally means “save us!” or “give us salvation!” It is a cry of hop `e and expectation. We need to remember that the people of Israel during this time was were under the Roman Empire’s occupations. Commonly, lives were hard and many people endured heavy taxation under severe punishment. Many faithful Jews were anticipating the promised Messiah, who like David, would restore the lost twelve tribes of Israel, deliver them from the grip of the Romans and bring them into a glorious kingdom. They saw Jesus as a charismatic preacher, miraculous healer, and nature conqueror, and surely, Jesus could be the king that would turn the Roman legions upside down. We need to remember also the context of the Gospel that in few days, the Jewish people would celebrate the great feast of Passover, and thousands of people were gathered in Jerusalem. With so much energy and euphoria, a small incident could ignite a full-scale rebellion. And Jesus was at the center of this whirlpool.

Jesus is indeed a king and savior, but He is not the kind of king that many people would expect. He is a peaceful king, rather than a warmonger, that is why He chose a gentle ass rather than a strong horse. His crown is not shining gold and diamond, but piercing thorns. His robe is not purple and fine-linen, but skin full of scars. His throne is neither majestic nor desirable, but a cross.

We may be like people of Jerusalem, and we shout “Hosanna!” to Jesus, expecting Him to save us from this terrible pandemic, to bring our liturgical celebrations back, and to solve all our problems. However, like people of Jerusalem, we may get it wrong. Jesus is our Savior, but He may save us in the way that we do not even like.

The challenge is whether we lose patience and dismiss Jesus as a preacher of fake news, rather than good news, or endure the humiliation with Him; whether we get discouraged and begin to shout, “Crucify Him!” or we stand by His cross. The challenge is whether we get bitter and start mocking the church authorities for their incompetence handling the crisis or we continue to support them in time of trial; whether we are cursing the grim situations or we begin to spread the light however small it is.

Why does God allow us to endure this terrible experience, or to be more precise, why does God allow Himself to endure this terrible experience? Let us wait at the Good Friday.

Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP

God’s Loving Touch

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Fifth Sunday of Lent [A]

March 29, 2020

John 11:1-45

Daniel Bonnell, "Jesus Wept." Oil on canvas, 34 x 46 in. Tags: LazarusAmong the five human senses, the sense of touch is the most basic and foundation to other senses. The sense of sight needs to be in touch with the light spectrum. The sense of taste requires to be in contact with the chemical in the food. The sense of hearing must receive air vibration or sound waves. This sense makes us a human being, a bodily being. No wonder that many traumatic experiences [even mental problems] are rooted in the lack (or excess) of touch.

God, our creator, understands our fundamental need of touch. Thus, to fulfill our deepest desire, He made a radical choice and became a man like all of us. Because Jesus is true God and true man, the disciples were able to see, hear, touch and feel Him. Yet, He gave a more radical gesture as He offered Himself as food to eat and drink to eat, “for my flesh is true food and my blood is true drink [Jn 6:55].” While the pagan deities were feasting on the human blood and sacrifice, our God does the opposite. He gave up His life so that we may live and feel His love.

Following the example of our Savior, the Church is filled with tangible means and bodily gestures as a sign and symbols of the divine presence. No wonder our churches are equipped with beautiful crucifixes, adorned with flowers, and mystified by the burning candle and incense. A sacrament is no other than the visible sign of the invisible grace, and sacraments really intend to connect to our bodies, like blessed water and oil that touch our forehead, the bread that we consume, and words of forgiveness that we need to hear. Amazingly, the Church is called the body of Christ, and our call is to unite as one people of God around this table of Eucharist.

However, the terrible thing befalls our Church. The pandemic caused by the Covid-19 is basically reversing the movement of our faith. We are facing a reality that touching can mean illness, the gathering may bring disaster, and worship may mean death. For the good of the flock, our leaders are forced to close the churches. We now feel the pain of separation from the Body of Christ.

Perhaps, we are like Lazarus who are experiencing spiritual suffering and death. Perhaps, we are like Martha who is asking the Lord, “why are you not coming sooner?” Perhaps, we are like Mary who cannot do anything but mourns and is reduced into silence.

The Gospel of John tells us that Jesus loves Lazarus, Martha and Mary as His close friends. Yet, Jesus did not rescue Lazarus when he got gravely ill, and even Jesus visited them after Lazarus died four days. Jesus allowed terrible things to take place in the life of Lazarus, Martha, and Mary, not because He wanted to punish them, or He does not care, but because He loves them.

In His love, God allows us to endure the sense of losing God, and experience suffering and even death. God knows too well that through suffering, we may love even deeper, we grow in faith, and re-discover God, alive and even closer. After all, there is no true resurrection, unless we enter the darkness of the tomb.

My deepest gratitude and prayer for our medical personal who give their all in to fight the disease and save lives.

Valentinus Bayuhadi Ruseno, OP